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Off The Record: What's Something You Feared Growing Up?

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2:33 God oh nice I don't know what the ████ this is but I was so ████ scared of seeing red white black and yellow that sounds OCD as ████ wait wait what colors red white black and yellow that's a coral snake the German flag yeah yeah like a coral snake so like I don't know why when I saw those colors as a kid it was like oh make me feel weird and my mom's closet um I nailed it my mom had like these clothes that would be like those colors together and every time I walked by the bathroom and she left the sliding door of the Closet open it would make me feel like oh that's so specific it's so weird it's so weird you think you're reincarnated and you got bit by a coral snake and died or you were a German

3:23 that's German flag oh that's the current that's Medieval Times wow what is that wow I thought you meant the Nazi flag German national flag for sure German but Medieval Times is pretty good isn't it vertical isn't a German like car called the Euro Car is like it's like it's vertical colors yeah see no no no it's um it's a horizontal ████ it's that's the that's the flag from 1913 to 1939 you know this yeah yeah yeah and what's the 1941 I don't know yeah you're talking about this baby see yeah yeah yeah that's what I'm talking about no it's a tri-color now yeah see but that as a kid I would see that it would make me feel like like I saw ████ monsters aren't those the colors of Cobra Kai that's random what's the uh synapses what's up with that ever since I was like

4:13 maybe like five or six it felt weird for me um I was picking up dog ████ and all of a sudden I just got so disgusted and it killed my like appetite and I just didn't want to pick up dog ████ anymore and after that I was just I just every single time like I'm eating like my favorite meal and I'm thinking about dog ████ and I'm like I can't eat anymore mom and she goes you ████ got your you better finish your ████ you know there's starving kids in poor countries that would love to have my I'm like I just keep thinking about ████ like I can't stop thinking about dog ████ like I love my dog but I don't want to pick up his dog ████ anymore and I I was like I can't do it and then like so I'm supposed to pick up the dog ████ and it'll be days so my nightmare is even crazier because I go to his ████ corner and now there's so much ████ and

5:04 I'm just looking at it like wow like this is even worse than I thought and I just didn't want to do it my dad just did it for me and then and I don't know I just had a ████ phobia like it was so bad you know what's crazy when you're a kid and you have a dog right and you know you're supposed to pick up the ████ every day but when you don't by the time you do it's so much holy you're like holy ████ these dogs when they're ████ they're like dollar cost averaging and it really adds up that's so much ████ simple lesson in investing you're ████ DCA in their ████ ████ every day losses one day it's not bad and he's but he come back a week later that's ████ the whole backyard you're like what the ████ I should invest in stuff yeah I should probably invest too that's a really good point um that's a true ████ coin right there did you think when you came up with this prompt or when Alex Resurrection came up with this prompt you think this is the

5:54 way it was going to go saying I was afraid of colors what the ████ is that bro you just don't know I just rolled dice I don't even know what the prompt is anymore you're scared about the kids yeah what what was something that you that's surprising that you feared yeah what were you releasing okay um did anybody else do this for you I had an older cousin who uh would spook me and tell me that if you left your limbs or your hand or whatever when you're sleeping over the edge of the bed then the witch under your bed will grab you yeah yeah Jesus Christ yeah I had that you didn't hear that I heard that there's a lot you know how many times I ████ slept against my wall with the night light on just like waiting to see if there were ████ fingers that would come up or if I like fell asleep and then I kind of woke up my hand was hanging over I would just roll over and fear and now all the

6:44 ████ camp like the only fans girl stick their butt off the edge of the bed because they want to get eaten yep their butt wants to get eaten yeah I mean good meme yeah yes when I was a kid I was afraid of the dark for sure I was like afraid of ghosts I was scared of the doctor I was afraid of spooky ████ like I uh my parents they I would sleep in their room all the time because I was afraid that like your boy was gonna get eaten if I was by myself yeah so I I didn't get my own room for a really long time until I was like Middle School I wonder if there's some type of like evolutionary trait to that where like humans used to be getting ████ eaten by animals and ████ oh that's exactly what it is if you're a child You're vulnerable right you're just like where are my parents at I gotta ████ sleep with them like there's gonna be a ████ bear that's weird built-in thing from that like it's so weird to sleep in a separate room and

7:34 you're not in the same Hut with your parents yeah like in the same Hut like in the same bed like you're just like there's ████ bad guys out there yeah there's German automotive Flags out there there's Medieval Times out there I felt that I was scared of like this lamp in my house and I'm scared of a lot of ████ but then one thing that was surprising I never really there's nothing to figure out it was just like a coincidence but the very first dream that I've ever had as you know you kind of remember your early dreams when you're a kid the very first one was that um there's a spot in our front lawn at my family's home and there used to be an orange tree there now it's gone now but when I was a kid my first dream was that my uncle uh my mom's sister had married uh he I my dream is that he was sitting on that

8:24 spot and then he like laid back and he went into the grass and then he came up a skeleton whoa and then that's my very first dream and I was like and I couldn't walk by that spot as a kid without thinking it every time so I would always like race past it yeah and then and then he ended up being a total uh scumbag it's crazy really he was the only person in our family that divorced out is he alive I don't know inconclusive good thing he's not not meeting him but it was like a really strange thing I don't know why I even thought of that what if that was a omen that was like this ████ is dead to me oh it could have been I think I told him to and he was like what the little Ryan younger Ryan not much comeback yeah I had a dream I had a dream you were a skeleton he's like huh

9:14 I think I talked about this before but my son is defective my insomnia started as a child because I was afraid of like it started with the spirits the dark the Bloody Marys the ghost stories they would just keep me up all night because I'm like if I ████ go to sleep then they're gonna catch me off guard so I'm not gonna ████ go to sleep I'ma Listen to Kiss FM all night and I would just listen to Kiss FM just like paranoid just staring at the ████ door and then the light would come up and I'm like all right time to go to school oh ████ and I just pulling all nighters from elementary school you're crazy for real and I waited till I was so tired that I would just crash and I would just go to ████ sleep like yo this six year old got eye bags what do you think if you had to put a like if you had to really put your finger on it

10:05 but she's in the weekly Top 40 bro I I think if if I mean if you believe that there's like evil spirits devil ghosts all these things monsters if you really believe it then you're like who's gonna save me from that ████ yeah yeah and if your parents also believe in ghosts and ████ like that too they're like better be careful I know and you're like you have fun play bloody Mary with your friends but they're like but then when your friends go and you're alone you're like ████ it's kind of scary now yeah I think that was what was scary but then like in junior high and on um when I got the internet I started going deep into the cult the ████ witchcraft all that ████ I went into which chat rooms to like talk to them and I'm like how do

10:56 you guys keep the spirits away and then I went so far hello fellow witches hello my wiccans by going in so deep that it normalized it to the point where it was no longer scary if you become like one of those weird vampires like like if you go into that world where it's like the occult the ████ ghost the spirits all that ████ right and you if it's every day every day then it's like and then the spirits are always around that becomes your world yeah then it's not scary anymore and then after that yeah but yeah for me uh I was afraid of gorillas really gorillas yeah but it was weird because like you know I used to go to sleep and then like I lived in Fairfax

11:47 Virginia and I remember like I go to sleep and then like I would see my whole room and I'd see myself sleeping and then I would look in the window and I'd see a girl and I was like holy ████ huh what the ████ I was like floating I was like I sell myself I saw gorilla you were astral projecting and you saw ████ I don't know what that was I was just like oh my God there's a ████ gorilla always looking at me every night and then you saw harambe I saw harambe every night I saw him every night so then I was like man and I was telling my mom and dad I was like man this ████ gorilla is like won't leave me alone and they're like you're ████ stupid and then yeah every night no matter what and it was like weird like because like you see you see yourself like if I was wearing Batman pajamas I see myself in Batman view yeah it's like exactly and I just see everything in the room like where I left it and then I see the girl look every time looking at me he's just

12:37 standing there watching you he's in the window or he's like in the corner of the room but he's like definitely watching me the whole is he moving he's just watching me wow and um and and then like like later on you know because you're a kid like you when you see something that's the only of that you've seen yeah so then it's like okay well I I saw a gorilla because like maybe I saw it at the zoo and so when I see this like shadow figure I'm like that's probably the gorilla associating with wall you know yeah yeah but then later on in life I'm like that's not a ████ gorilla dude it's not like a yeah like that's like a ████ dude who's like standing there but he's like all like completely black and like yeah and he's like watching me my whole life the same dude that was at the hotel

13:29 tilt dude yeah all the time well then when we woke up you need to go to a ████ Buddhist temple and they need to put they need to put Rosemary around oh ████ that was different because like usually when I I'm not awake when I see him I'm like I'm like projecting it yeah floating outside my body that when I was awake which is wild because he was going like this I'm not like and you said you're covered in ████ I was covered in and come all over my face and test so yeah it's just right here though stupid ████ JK but no no yeah but um no it was so weird because I was like damn it I was like damn like this is so scary how do we throw away people's traumas but then I saw a documentary like years later about like sleep paralysis it was exactly my life like we're like you feel dizzy right like like when I'm when I'm like astral projecting or whatever like you can't

14:19 exactly control it always and like especially when the guy's looking at me like I get pulled towards him it's like I'm dizzy and then I watch this thing about astral projecting it's like exactly that ████ and I was like whoa this is ████ crazy and I know it's some kind of psychological thing but I wasn't aware of it and then uh yeah so now I think I just I just have a ████ shadow man who follows me everywhere and you still see him now oh in Vegas everywhere no I haven't seen him in like two years whoa oh that's good in Vegas I mean he's a traveler yeah he fought me everywhere so it's like a guardian angel but like the one that you don't want you don't want we don't know that yeah what if he's protecting you I don't ████ know from gorillas are you scary like like well one well one time in particular Nikki was there for this one and I've talked about this many times but it's like so I am under right and

15:11 then I'm floating on my body I see myself and I look over and I see myself and I see the shadow man he's like right over my body right over it like like is he straddling you like he's like shoved his ████ in my mouth yeah he's about to get the money shot he's having his way with you bro he's ████ my face do a little Shadow ████ yeah no so so he's like he's he's like but he's this time like he always has seen me but he like turns his head and looks at me like while I'm floating not my body but he's like already all hovering over my body turns head looks at me and he's like let me in he says to me let he sees you let me in and he wants and then you're like what though yeah well no so then I'm telling Nikki I'm like oh I'm like Nikki I'm like I float over to Nikki I'm like yo wake me the ████ up ████ wake up you ████ ████ and then

16:01 and then but no in Earnest I was like yo I was like trying ████ because I'm not the most religious person ever I'll tell you that but I was like in the name of Jesus Christ wake me up or whatever I was trying ████ right and then she's like I just like I'm look I hear something and I hear Steve going like and then I hear him go Jesus Christ blah blah Jesus Christ yeah and then she's like hey wake up and then I turned to her it's not like you know what you expect to see your body turning to her yes but then I wake up like the same moment I wake up in my body POV Nicki right there and I go thank you thank you thank you it's not like I had a bad dream it was like my ████ my um Consciousness was transferred from this dream into this moment and then like me and Nikki were interacting

16:52 in this moment it was ████ that's that's part of the sleeping stuff right yeah yeah so you wake up and then it's like it was like boom thank you yeah like Dan but then and this is the creepiest part of this whole thing oh no it was like there was this energy that got whooshed out of the room at the same time like this dark energy got washed out of them and I could feel it it's like that feeling when you're on like the Tower of Terror and you feel like your heart sank yeah you know it's like oh ████ we're up here ah you know it's like that but it's like goes deep that way out of the room away like he was like ah ████ I don't know he's like I've been trying for 30 something years and I still can't get it no idea but but the it's so desperate bro you gotta ████ sip just following you around trying to get into you maybe you should do a cleansing bro let me in I know the right crypto you don't know he no he does give

17:42 me the good crypto tips that's what I like when I'm asleep he's like he's like hey get the woo get the woo how much do I need no it's it's freaky it's like I don't know right it's not like I'm sitting here I'm going this is Paranormal I know for a vet I'm like I don't know what the subconscious does like I don't know yeah like I've had dreams before where it's like you have a dream it's like perfect it's like you wrote an entire movie and you're like man this is so good and you wake up in the night and you jot it down and you wake up the next day like the ████ was that I don't know like you know I mean I don't I'm not sitting here saying I know it's just like that connective tissue with me and Nikki in that moment that was the thing that made it the most real for me because it was just something I've been dealing with my whole life but then like in that moment to help you transferred Consciousness like from watching this thing that I

18:32 always watch that like it doesn't rationalize the next day it was rationalized and I was like what the ████ is going on but yeah it's left me on for two years and then did Nikki bring out her crystals and tell you you know what we need to ████ cleanse this ████ you know okay damn it you need to get some ████ frankincense and rosemary so after after that confrontation you've never seen him again no I saw him after that multiple times but like um when we moved to Vegas like I really haven't had any maybe it's he was like Vegas oh I mean I'll stay in Virginia California but come on Vegas right it's too dry for me it's too dry I get bloody noses he's like Nick he's like I'm all saying hey in Pasadena talking in Old Town that's it he's like

19:22 my skin in Vegas just don't go well man like I'ma stay out here just try to like sleep in a hotel in Barstow and see how far he's willing to go that's true but I've never thought about going to like a monk or like something to exercise I'm so scared of ████ with anything like it's like you know like even a Ouija board freaks me nah ████ that exactly why would I want to aggravate anything I've had so far like 24 months of like peace time yeah I don't want to ████ with anything I put you need a good you know what you gotta do get salt and put a little bit just on your doorstep man you think I should ████ with it now nothing fine I think if it hasn't killed you you're probably fine just keep them awaiting it's interesting like what do you what else do you think besides maybe moving that like might have

20:13 stopped this from happening it could just be some latent ████ in my psychosis I have no idea like the idea that I think I know your best guess your best estimation well I've always okay so like if you have a dark side to you what don't we all Joe I'm pretty honest okay that's true no I think as a kid right like me and my sister always had a good like way to communicate with each other where we would just feel weird ████ like when we moved into a new house we're like hey what do you think's a weird place in this house and we're both just like oh yeah this place in that and both of you guys would just feel it always what about the other siblings it's like that's creepy still there's something it was like me and her and we're always like that's creepy right and then like you know we would just agree like that was creepy but so like it's kind of like that just like it's pulling you just feel this like ████ Vibe I can't

21:03 explain yeah yeah just feel it some people just got that spiritual energy for real bro I don't know I think people have it way better than I do I'm just talking about like yeah like okay that place is creepy or like um like like um today at the time in the bike where I saw that ████ shadow guy and then the time where I like saw a shadow guy when I was in my grandma's house in like 1996 or some ████ like who's standing in front of an orange alarm clock where I could see like the light obfuscated by a shadow person and then like I closed my eyes I reopened them there's like there was a door that would be dragged by the carpets like you could always hear it if it opened and closed and I'm telling you I closed my eyes and I reopened them and he's gone and like the the alarm clock light is completely back like he wasn't backlit and so it was just creepy I'd never seen anything like that before and I don't I would never say that I've seen a ghost

21:53 I've just seen these two Shadow People one time at my grandma's house one time at the bike hello and yeah and in the gorilla man and the gorilla man and then Nikki saw same ████ shadow man when we were staying at the Queen Mary for Christmas um three years ago no but she said she describes the same ████ it's like you just look up you're like there's a ████ dude in our room what the ████ going on it's like this like shadow figure and she's like Steve what are you doing man just go back to bed it's like two in the morning and then she looks down and she's like bad Steve who the ████ is that and then yeah and then he's just sitting there and then she's like looks away looks back he's gone wow and it's not like like fragmentations of like oh she sees shadowlands blinking over here too it's like she sees a shadow guy she sees me she looks back there's a shadow guy and then she's like what the ████ confused and then he's gone it's like that it's always a confusion that makes him go away I don't

22:43 know what it is because like so my cut my um be more confused my sister-in-law was looking it up the next morning and she's like did you guys know that like we're staying like you guys your room is like right under the room they close down because they keep on having problems in there because like they keep on saying their spirits and ████ yeah it was like Dad you're like a conduit energy or something I don't know foreign [Music]

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