0:00 [Music] Welcome back. Uh, today we're talking about something that shaped us that most people wouldn't know. Ooh, like secrets. Yeah. Could be. Could be secrets. Could be something formative. Could be, you know, you got an accident one time or you had an accident. The source of your racism. Oh, you good for me? Everyone said, "Yeah, that's not supposed to make you all I have one for every race." For me, it was like when I was like, you know, probably from the time I was like 11 to like ████ 23 or something, I had like crazy acne. Oh yeah. And that was like big big big Really? Oh yeah. You got scars? Big. No, I didn't get scar scars thankfully cuz none no scars cuz I really was a a
0:51 psychopath about it. Like I like was skininc care fiend all the time but I you proactive and stuff. I did all of it, dude. Proactive was worked for me. Accutane worked for me. Yeah. So I I had to do three tours of Accutane. I even had to do another tour of Accutane when I was like 27. Did you have it on your back as well? Never had it on my back. Just all face. All face. Damn. So how did it how did it shape you? Uh it made me extremely like aware of like light. I didn't know it turned you into X-Men. You get what does the sun activate? No, like anytime like after high school and ████ The sun is here. After high school and ████ Anytime I wanted to like go to a drugstore with friends or something like that, I would be like, I'm just going to wait in the car. Like ████ like that. Oh, cuz like drugstore lighting was like the fluorescent like
1:43 you didn't want to give a breakout, dude. Yeah. You're going to make him break out, bro. Yeah. Just going to ████ my skin. No, it's just cuz I didn't want people to see how bad my skin is. Did you Did you find out that it was actually linked to your gut health? Uh, no. It's linked to excess oil production in my skin and ████ deficit. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I had to come more. It's too It's too low all the time. I thought it was inflammation. For some people, I'm sure it is. Some people it's attributed to the foods they eat. Some people it's all kinds of stuff. But I had to go to many doctors. Was yours just attributed to straight up nothing? Like it's just genetics. My my my excess oil produc That's going to be every time. So, I had I had to um do so many tours of Accutane that it like it shrank my pores eventually and it cleared me out. You have any side effects from that? Um when I pee, it's black. Oh, sick.
2:34 That was great. Accutane. I I had a great time on Accutane, man. I I know people like people really talk bad about Accutane, but nothing worked for me. Absolutely not. is a hard card to be dealt because cuz they always tell you, "Oh, it's based on stress." That's giving you the stress. So, what are you supposed to do? Or they say like, "Hey, Accutane leads to people like KMSing." Yeah. But like, dude, you already want to k cuz your skin's so bad. Like, Accutane makes gives you depressive. Like, what's KS? That's what they That's what they were KMS. Kill kill. Mhm. Oh, yeah. We're there. Um, tubers t the tuber algorithm hates it. Were you ever called Craterface? I was called all kinds of stuff. Yeah. Did you make fun of you actually or you just made fun of yourself? Hey, Swiss cheese. As usual, nobody was harder on me than me. So, whatever they were saying to me didn't matter. How long How many years is your oil? Were there any
3:26 good ones people said that you were like, "God, that's good. I haven't heard that one." Not really. Nothing that like stuck in my head, you know? How many years have you had it? Nothing that stuck to your face. I had it for like over I mean, I had like I don't know 14 15 years. 15 years? That's a long ass time. So, what changed? Like, what happened? Accutane. It was just Accutane it to with a gun while I was saying that. Well, then I heard you say proactive earlier. No. No. I tried Proactive. It didn't work. Was it your gut health? Yeah. So, Accutane's really, but it doesn't work that well for everyone, right? No, of course not. Everyone's different. How does How does Accutane work? It it it deprivives your body of like the oils that go take something. your your skin like starts cracking and like it's so super ultra dry. Is it topical or is it No, no, no. It's a pill. And then you constantly have to get blood testing to
4:17 make blood work to make sure that you're you're still good like cuz it's really an extreme drug cleared up in a year. Cleared up. Um so what happens at first is your body starts to fight it a little bit. So you actually get a first breakout which is real bad. And then from there you clear up and like so by like 3 months I was completely cleared up. Dude, aren't you glad you didn't have to do the thing where like some guys have the ████ craters from having it in the past and then you got to get that surgery where they just knife you like crazy. Oh god. Well, like in Tim Tim's doing that right now, right? I don't know. Yeah, I think I think I saw I think I've talked about it a bunch cuz Tim was one of the people who had it too for a while like as an adult even where it's like ████ But every time I I see anybody with acne out there I'm just like dude respect, dude. Like I'm like I was a soldier in that war. It runs in my family. Does it? I
5:07 escaped me. You didn't have any act. Oh, yeah. You didn't. I got eczema instead. Oh, lucky. Yeah, I know, right? Yeah. Good trade. Got the slowb burn versus like losing the ████ high school days. Did your yearbook photo look like ████ I'm sorry. I think they No, I think they as soon as he said it. I'm sorry. They I think we I think we shopped it like quite a bit. Yeah, Ryan. Oh, really? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. like touched it up or whatever, man. But I was never happy about it. What a ████ click baiter. What if they did a really bad Photoshop job and then they made your ro like gave you rosy cheeks that glow? Just move it all to your forehead. Yeah, doesn't matter. Anytime anybody hits me on appearance ████ I'm like, "Bro, my skin is clear, ████ I could give a f███." Yeah. I'm just like level. Thank god, dude. Yeah, that's a that's a
5:59 good one, man. that would shape a lot about you for 15 years battling that broy. 15 years is that's way and especially when you get rid of it and then it comes back you're like what is the worst and then the reason why I do all this right is because I get ingrown hairs so easily cuz I shrink my pores so much. So it's tough for me to go clean shaving cuz it just bumps the next time it just looks like acne basically. Yeah. And then sometimes like it just it gets so it gets painful or like they'll it'll just get lodged in there so much that like if I accidentally bump my face even it it'll make tears come out of my eyes. So it's just like not working. Then how come you shave this part? Cuz it doesn't doesn't clog your face. Oh, so it's just ingrown hairs here. I get ingrown. I got a ton of ingrown hairs here. Yeah. Why? Cuz my skin's more curly like for some or my hair is more curly here for some
6:49 lucky reason. So here it's straight. Here up here it's straight where where it's left like here. Here it's straight. Yeah. But down here it's curly on my Oh, that's interesting. Yeah. It's really awesome. Thank the Irish and Germans out there. Why don't you Why don't you just grow it like long? It doesn't look good on me. Gay when guys do that. It looks good on you. I don't think it looks good on me. I do it just so I don't have to shave. Like you said, I did the same thing. If I clean shave the next time, it just like hurts. It just comes out gross. Yeah. And mine looks curly. Instead of a razor, why don't you guys get a electric and then just And then it just leaves a little bit. Oh, I'll try that. You tried it a million times. You still get an ingrow hair even when it's like Yeah. a a a quarter of a centimeter. Yeah. They cuz they curl for
7:40 some So it goes back in. Yeah. That's what That's what makes it ingrown. That's a crazy after having all the acne. Like what changed? What do you mean? Never mind. Got ████ Yeah, I was getting ████ all over the place. Are you trying to say that like nothing got better for him? No, I was trying to say like, "How did it change?" And he was going to go, "Oh, I used Accutane." I see. Damn. You should have said like, "Well, what'd you use that that changed? That that was Sorry, I was playing with a knife. I get it. I got lost in this knife for a sec." With a knife. ████ Bad. We totally He basically did the same thing as Joe, but we totally didn't treat him like we treat Joe. Finally. Yeah. But I remember you I used to like wake up. I used to see people like I used to see like I used I'd be at the gas station and I would think about how long it took me to get ready cuz I used to like use like little ████
8:32 things touches of little like concealer if I knew I was going to be on camera or whatever. And then um I would see like somebody at the gas station like wearing sweatpants and just getting out of the car and they have a clear skin and they would just be like filling up their tank and I'd be like what is that like to just wake up and not have to think about that? Whoa. Wow. Yeah. Yeah. So, people, all you out there who hit me on my appearance all the time, I could give a ████ man. I I was raised to not think I'm a very attractive person. It's a part of my my mold, brother. I think the one thing that's like a small thing for me is that like why my hair was so crazy for so many years is because when I was in seventh grade, um I used to like walk to the barber shop. My dad would give me like 10 bucks or 15 bucks and go get a haircut. And then um eventually I was like I started asking
9:23 the barber to like do weirder ████ My dad got pissed and he was like, "No, I told you to go in there and get this haircut." And he's like, "If you don't get the haircut I say, then you don't get money to go get haircuts." And I was like, "Okay. Um I guess I'll do it myself." So I I got the dog grooming clippers and I tried to give myself a fade and it was all ████ up. And my dad's like, "Yeah, you want to cut your own hair? that's the hair you're going to have then. So then I just kept doing my own hair looking like ████ for like maybe like a two years. I started really early and then by the time I was in high school, I I was like had a better like sense of it and my dad said as long as I'm the one cutting my own hair, he's not going to tell me what it needs to look like. Wow. So then I started You just have to spend money. Yeah. Exactly. So then I started doing dumb ████ where like I shaved all my hair except for my bangs, you know, the ████ Asian thing. Yeah. And then I started
10:13 bleaching it and doing all this dumb ████ And that's kind of where like by the time like you know I was like a in the dance world and I had like weird hair. It wasn't it was just because of that reason. That's sick that I didn't have any uh barber money so that I was I used I used the dog clippers from wall for like 2 years. That's awesome. Do you're like the girl who like got locked in her house growing up and now she's the biggest ████ ever. H finally he can express himself. That's that that's how I ended up with ████ hairstyles. I remember my first endo experience. So like the very first time it ever happened and you're just confused as to what's happening. It was in high school
11:06 during a dance camp. Oh ████ and we were doing across the floors and it hit me as I was doing across the floors. I just remember so vividly looking at my teacher and her looking at me like the ████ is wrong with you? Cuz I'm just trying to power through it but I'm confused like I've never felt this pain before. So it's the first time you ever feel a very specific kind of pain and an extreme amount of pain in front of everyone in front of everybody. And so you're just struggling through it. And I just remember having to go to the bathroom and I felt like I was dying. I literally thought like I was so stressed. I thought something was so wrong. Um but you didn't tell anybody. At first I didn't. But at that point I had no choice. People came in to check in on me and then my mom was called and
11:57 then it was like a whole ordeal and then there was a group of people around me and I'm like screaming in pain. Um, and then, uh, basically it was like, you can't do anything about it. You just have to go through it. And then realizing afterwards, oh ████ this is just a part of it. Like the doctor's like, oh, you just got cramps. She's probably just That was like my first experience of, oh, it's just bad cramps. Really downplays you. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Did people think you just have food poisoning in your diarrhea and then they called your mom and it's like, "Look, your daughter's been ████ her guts out." And Yeah, that's exactly how I felt. Your daughter's been ████ guts out. You need to come pick her up. Yeah, she can't do across the floors. She's out of camp. She almost crapped herself back. Pregnant or something. That's got to be That'll fix it. It
12:47 looks like the crappiest thing is to be told like, "Ooh, you are now on a monthly subscription to this new thing." Yeah. But you think it's a one-off situation, right? Keeps happening. And then it just keeps happening to the point where you have to start managing the emotions and the anxiety up until that point every time. Yeah. Wow. So, does it drive you nuts when somebody tries to debate you that it's even a real thing? Who does that? the doctors. You see that they even know what it is. Imagine if you're like Victorian era and they're like they're throwing in the river. Give this ████ some ████ cocaine leaches and leeches. Let her bleed. Or they're just like she's just what what did they say that women were going through back then? It was like hysteria. Hysteria.
13:37 Hysteria. It's just hysteria. Did you say before that like if you were to have like get pregnant, have a baby, it would down it would like kind of That's what they say. And I do have a friend who she got pregnant and she's never had a situation. I found that information somewhere too. Solution. Yeah, that you know it's so funny. A doctor actually said that to me. Just go get a baby. I'm a doctor. That's hilarious. Just get pregnant. And I think he was joking. I hope he was cuz it's kind of funny in like retrospect. No way. But he's like, "Well, your options are birth control or get pregnant. If you need help getting ready, let me know. Say I'll write you a script. I'll come back in five minutes. Oh, what is it that Bindy Irwin is currently doing to get rid of hers? She's like going through a ████ procedure right now and it's very like public. Oh,
14:28 that's probably the surgery that a ton of money to like do this surgery thing. But the problem with that surgery is it it's not guaranteed. So, uh, the inflammation can grow back. They can't. You seem like the type of person who would have a inflammation grow back. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. 100%. Your car would get stolen. 100%. Do you plan on having children? Or would you like to? But the right person. Does it motivate you at all to have children based on knowing that it could get better? I'm not motivated to have children. I'm actually come to the terms that is somebody Somebody can go get it while she finishes this really intense story. Um I've come to the terms that I probably won't have children. Wow. Really? Yeah. But you're open to it. I'm open to it, but also like let's be realistic. By the time I find somebody
15:19 that I would want to have ch children with at that time, my age, like it's just I'm good. Gucci. I'm good. Bar and Steve just arm wrestled for you. still done wonderful. I mean, I would like a a baby. I'm Steve. I guess you never know. Maybe you could you could move pretty ████ fast. Good. I think I've adapted the the cool aunt role and I'm cool with that. What if you meet a dude like next year and he's like just nothing in you like day one. Nontop. Day one, dude. I mean, that's usually what happens. Shut up. They know you're so cool. Hey, you're tight. They know you're that chill. I'm going to hope he's not in me. Day one. trying to get me. Anthony, what? I got to make it all about you. We're talking about judo. Stop. Stop doing that. Yeah. So, what did you learn when all
16:10 those guys came in? But are there any experiences that shaped the way your ears are or no? Yeah, dude. ████ blunt force trauma. Wait, I thought it was from guys coming in. That was There's no blunt force trauma from there. Okay. Coming to you. Yeah. Makes your ears gain. It's like a balloon. It's full of ████ right now. That's why when you pop it, it's white. It's full of other guy's gum. Yeah. That's why you got to drain it. He doesn't want to drain it. That would be the twist of the remember them. Sick. Sentimental guy. Dude, what? That's ████ amazing. If that was true. No, that's not true, though. On the record, that's not true. It is true. Nobody came in me. Cut him saying it's not true. Look at his ears. It's true. No, that's not true. It's just from being nutted in my ear. If you want this, you just need a bunch of guys coming at you.
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