0:00 [Music] and welcome back to careful boys where the boys are careful and the women are recklessly not present how dare they well how dare they all right we got a really good uh uh story time here and let's give it up for it's ryan's uh very very first full day he did a practice round tell us how he did those videos probably went out thanks for the practice round hell is a practice with dante bosco of all people yeah right what's up that's like the biggest person i could possibly have next to me he's the easiest dude ever to ████ talk to everybody yeah he's bigger than dante like like size wise he's huge he's like
0:57 you're his best you're his best friend and he's kind of like that lots of good energy it's a dream yeah that's great uh yeah so thanks for letting me host the full day thanks for doing it i picked the worst articles i could possibly find good so great today right now we're to talk about something really really deep and uh something with a lot of historically deep cuts our worst breakups we ever had the worst breakups oh man a lot of my breakups are worse mine's mine was in high school they're all just like in a chart they're just all at the bottom so like in my when i was uh my so i did junior year two times you guys know that this is high school five why does that make sense for someone how did that happen all right so we're all like whoa
1:47 by the way high school i already got kicked out of like three schools right it's like two elementary schools and i'm just a really bad kid i didn't fit in very well i got kicked out of my high school went to a high school out here my cousin was crushing it i still wasn't doing good so like my mom's really proactive she's like man you gotta get your ████ together um i found this like military school maybe that'll be good for you and it's a boarding school i was like ████ it i need to get my ████ together because i keep making the wrong friends apparently so i go to this military school over here since they have all these like military traditions you can't come in as a senior even though i finished my junior year here so you have to repeat so there's actually a lot of seniors that are like 19 20 years old so i go there and i'm like ████ it up i'm gonna go here but at that time i was dating this chick that went to
2:37 gabrielino high school which is like a couple cities over and she was crushing it like debate team cheerleader all that was post like scholarship to essie and by interacting with me going to raves and not coming home for like two weeks you ruined her life i honestly think i ruined her life but it was probably the most fun she's ever had and when we separated and i went to and i went to this life uh because we wake up at random strangers houses you know like ████ passed out and we're like both 16 17 years old and there's like 30 year olds around and ████ anyways um we i go to this military school and we have time apart and it kind of feels like jail because you don't have cell phone or anything like that and you have a pay phone and you have pay phone hour so that's what like fools will go up and ████ trying to sweet talk or
3:27 whatever you gotta like ████ put in ████ quarters every single time i'm about to run out so i remember i'm like cool after school i can't wait to go talk to her i'm out to pay phone ████ twiddling my ████ fingers and ████ around the corner yeah and then she told me um she's been thinking about it and she wanted to break up and i'm like ████ i wanted to ████ slam the ████ paper on two thousand times and i'm like and that's why i want to break up right there and then you get some weekends where you get to go home oh my god just wait wait till i come back uh we'll talk about it and she was like really adamant about it so i hung up and i remember going back to my dorm and that's when the uh usher um which album was it like eighty seven or one oh no a7 and i remember like just listening with with my ████
4:17 uh cd you have to hold it straight because if you go like this a ████ start yeah i'm ████ sitting there and i have the top bunk too so my head's all close to the ceiling i'm all sitting there there's this one line he said uh life is a prison when you're in love alone i was like you can do you know like if you're back in the same city i'm going our house right now what's going on like when there's like a giant issue and you're really far away from it it like ████ magnifies it like crazy and i was like oh for like ████ three four days i'm gonna ████ take ecstasy give me extra massages man [Laughter]
5:08 heartbreak heartbreak i'll always remember that what was her name jessica you ruined her life i wonder what she's doing now probably heroin no it's just so i i actually uh i ran into her at roy like maybe like four or five years hey savoy you ruined your life no no then uh she got into sc is doing her thing and so i think she's crushed i think she like flipped it around because she were like he's the problem i gotta ████ get out of this every time we hang out take all this ecstasy i don't ████ get my ████ together she's dropping e-pills all the time yeah it was i mean we're like 16 ████ crossing state lines constantly just this is crazy so ████ edc dude dude that's ████ nuts going from like someone that's like had her ████ together you know like like the like the the typical like lead chick you would
5:58 see in a high school movie where oh you know her parents are getting and go to scholarship and all that dude those kids are so stressed though are you kidding me they are they really are too how old were you i think i was 16 or 17. that's the biggest ████ breakup era time like high school yeah yeah that is because that's when you first get your uh sex times that's where you're the most dramatic i think my biggest heartbreak was after like having the sex because it's like so meaningful and strong such a big moment at that time in your life because previous to that you have heartbreaks but then like you don't like obsess afterwards i remember it took me like a ████ almost a year to get over my my high school girlfriend that i lost my uh b card to it was so special yeah like i needed on you yeah
6:53 [Music] did you have a girlfriend during that year or no you were just no well i hooked up but i was always thinking about her you know and then like i remember it was so bad bro like well because she she ████ we she broke up on the phone with me and she did the whole like uh it's not you it's me thing and then i was just like give me some closure dude just or if it is what is what i need to improve on so then i i could get this on my head not not to get you back but like so so i know like where i ████ up or like how this didn't work out for you i couldn't even ████ get none of that it was like no no no i'm just like it's me because i'm i don't deserve you this kind of ████ that's like when i'm canceling netflix and they're like oh baby why yeah just tell us why you're leaving it's like not you it's me ████ you and i'm like what do you mean you know
7:43 and then so i was like what 16 or 17 that ████ was like so confusing because i was like okay if there's nothing wrong with me and there's something wrong with her then why is why is she running away from me yeah you better get your act together like yeah what do you need to ████ work on then and it's all i want to be friends and i'm like oh so you still want to talk and talk friendly okay then i'll call you and then she's like ignoring me yeah and i'm all like yeah why why friends don't ignore each other's that guy hey i'm that guy too i think we've all been there so i'm like what what i was it was so confusing okay gianni yeah just appreciate it if she just said like i'm not feeling this anymore and like
8:33 i'm not attracted to you like i i i don't think we are in love like i want to split if if i heard those words it would have been like probably cool no i would have murdered myself nah it would have been like clear but it ████ with my head so much because i'm like well damn she says she wants to be friends we're not acting like friends what did i do wrong i didn't she didn't say i did anything wrong because the words don't make sense so i was so confused it was the first time you i heard it in my life you know and then so i'm like 17 year olds and i think the craziest funniest ████ looking back was i was in the car full of my friends we were around her neighborhood because i had we had a friend that lived close by right that fool took a wrong turn and we went close to her house and i was like no you gotta ████ turn back bro and he's like why because the closer i get to our house the ████ memories come back to the drama he's like oh ████ he was
9:25 the homie too because he was like oh ████ and then as soon as the car came by he went skirt and ████ busted a u-turn and he hightailed out of there and then i could feel my heart like chilling the further i got away from her house i was like that's trauma i was like ████ god thank you thank you oh that was a close call man too many memories were coming back dude i couldn't get close to her anymore like is that place nearby it's yeah it's pretty close by all right let's do it let's see let's block let's vlog on the field with joe let's see what happens how's your heart feeling bud i know that feeling because uh jessica's house was close to keppel because i would drive by all the time she's doing all the burnouts oh that's the that's the window i used to jump out of when her dad came home too many memories do you go oh this is when i picked her up at three in the morning and her mom came chasing her out and we ████ did burnouts and like left to the rave
10:16 too many memories it was heartbreaking started ████ almost the tear went like this the closer i got to the house and then when it was like driving away it ████ sucked back up it reversed close dude vacuum tears that was so close today's video is brought to you by upstart nothing is more discouraging than paying toward your credit card but barely making a dent in your debt that's why upstart is here to help you pay off your debt quickly so you can finally get ahead upside is the fast and easy way to pay off your debt with a personal loan all online whether you're paying off credit cards consolidating high interest debt or funding personal expenses over half a million people have used upstart to get one fixed monthly payment upstart knows you're more than just your credit score and is expanding access to affordable
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11:58 new and a mutual friend of ours would she would she would tell me like oh this girl really likes you and i was like oh okay all right i had no idea i was like sounds like nick yeah okay whatever he's like what do you want me to do then that's the reaction you deflected that even yeah yeah and then she and then she would continue to try to like set us up and then eventually started hanging out and i was like okay she likes me and then i kind of started liking her too and all my knowledge of relationships at this time i never had a girlfriend before i haven't had a real first kiss at this time yet real ████ late bloomer you know and uh she like she would always like press everything whatever and we started hanging out she she and then we kind of i kind of i fell in love with this chick i was i loved her so much wait that was a fast jump all right yeah no well you speed it
12:48 up but it did happen pretty quick because like i said everything that i thought of was from like movies i thought you had to be like romantic all the time like super lovey-dovey and i really liked her and i think i i for sure scared her away like she probably thought i was a ████ came out too strong i came out jump in a tuxedo with chocolates just every night hey you know show up at the horse but like you know we were ████ real creepy ████ no but i really liked it she liked you and then you came back you reversed it too strong and she's like ooh i don't want this i'm pretty sure that's what happened bro i'm pretty sure so like throughout this time and we were hanging out and i thought we were having a good time or whatever and like on this is back in my space days too right wow and i was like in her top and ████ bro you know what i mean she had a picture of me and her on her like myspace and that was dude that's a big
13:38 one you made it that's it i was telling the world about telling the world bro and i was like wow okay all right and we're hanging out and then on aim we're chatting one night her name is mrs nick mrs nick she didn't she didn't go full but she needed to go too missus [Laughter] xoxo but i told her i was like i love you blah blah blah blah and then she goes i don't think we should talk anymore she hits me with that oh and then my heart just like sinks on aim on amber my heart is aiming break up aim breakup dude my heart's beating so does the sound of like ████ with you a little bit now that you do that noise it kind of gives me a little flashback a classmate or yeah she was a classmate she was a classmate how was it afterwards it was so well you try to
14:28 meet up or try to talk on the phone don't talk to me though she goes i don't think we should talk anymore i don't think we should be together like we shouldn't do this anymore and i go okay well like can we still be friends that's what i said that's so good this is hey i'm just always trying hey you want to sit next no okay oh ████ hey yeah that's me yeah right oh god and then tip mode super scent bruh super simple this is what happens when you grow up with like send me a picture of a ████ how do i know it's you bro i gotta go scan it and then and then the next day after she hits me with that i'm like heartbroken and i'm like okay i gotta try to like get her back whatever the ████ never happened but i go under
15:19 me i go under myspace or whatever and she already that picture that she had with me was with another doodle her aim name became mrs sam i was in the shower like i just cried all inside there it was awesome she's been cheating on you dog that's savage ████ she's been cheating we weren't even like together like it was still like yeah it was for sure i botched it but thank god i you know i got that out of where she was talking to five dudes and then the other guy one pop probably that was the case though cause if you had the picture with her you were in the lead on the leaderboard for a little bit maybe like a week or two if you look down on the top eight maybe you would have seen your competition he's probably moving up seven six five yeah every week she changes the leaderboards
16:10 dude it updates on tuesday every week what's crazy is i thought i thought i'd when i was first asking this i thought i had all normal breakups like that were just like these like that's normal to me yeah i ████ realized i probably had the ████ worst one really yes and if you have one worse than this please ████ tell it i was 17 i was with this really beautiful girl her name was kay and uh she was uh like way too good for me and then um of course as you do when you're 17 and you're idiot the girl who's way too good for you ████ find a way to sabotage it because you believe it's ████ yours love it um so i start every day it's like i had a ████ reason to break up with her because i was so scared of it like getting ruined by something else so then i would manufacture every day like a new ████ reason like ████ men geniuses you have to call to be like i'm breaking up
17:00 with you yeah your ass is too fat are your level's too low for the final boss but you just see it every day i'm in disbelief you are just way out of my league yeah so women in case you're wondering yeah we ████ do that ████ um so i did it every day finally i got the balls to really break up with her like an idiot and she was totally devastated at the time she didn't have a car so um she was all frantic trying to find a way to get to me i was like not picking up not calling her back from the pager thing and uh and then she calls her cousin to give her a ride her cousin on the way to pick her up to take her to me dies in a car accident holy this changes nothing ████
17:50 yeah holy ████ and she was in the car too no she wasn't he was going to pick her up to take her to me as a favor because i because i was breaking up with her oh my god and he dies a car accident and then she like her whole family goes over to her house and is like yelling and blaming her because they found out that's why he was going to pick her up and they're just like they're what kind of ████ faces you could pick up a cousin for any reason yeah but i guess like they just automatically said it was her fault and then she in in like the big dramatic fight she's having with her family tries to kill herself and she like bashes her head on the floor and cracks her skull open and she's in a coma now and she's in this hospital and i'm trying to find out which one and her brother's like i'm not telling you what
18:40 hospital she's in i don't want you visiting her this is your fault too and she's just keeping it a secret where she is and i'm like losing my ████ going holy crap ████ this all this all happened so quickly and then uh i couldn't do anything but wait um wait so she did a head dive yeah to try to kill herself the craziest thing ever during the argument she just she just went back like out of the stress or some ████ and then so she's because there's two major things happening at once it's ████ the breakup the dying and the ████ damn look at what you caused you ████ bro you're a ████ domino effect though you're a butterfly effect of death isn't that amazing you could just ████ forget these things happen so yeah she uh so she's in a coma i don't think she'll host anymore dude [Laughter] she uh after about i forgot if it was
19:32 like a few weeks or something i finally got a hold of her mom and her mom was like yeah she's out of the hospital it's it's fine and i was like well is it okay with you if i see her i want to come apologize about everything and her mom's like uh yeah you can go ahead and see her she's in england we we've shipped her out to live there we buried her in england why is she living there they you know when you're bad as an asian you get ████ moved yeah yeah yeah that's like me and ████ in the military's quarters they moved her to england one step before abandonment is just banishment yeah you have like that's your purgatory so she was living in england uh working at her family's like hotel or something which makes her hotter because she has an accent now that's hot yeah and i can ████ never stop i don't remember you ryan i never saw her again only so ████ mind-blowing that was one of the craziest stories she
20:22 called me she called me like ████ seven years later she just called me out of the blue what does she say they should say ████ you you ████ son of a ████ no she's doing british this is really ████ sad but she's like ████ mental like she's seven years later she's all ████ weird i couldn't understand what she was saying but i knew it was her and she was like yeah it's me what's up like how you been like and it was like she couldn't even ████ process or project the correct expression for what you want to say so what you did was you actually dream come true had a the girl of your dreams and then um i think a little bit of joy right now a little bit of you yeah yeah i did was keep turning keep turning i'm kind of getting hard off of denying a hot girl yeah let me keep breaking up with her i broke up with her so hard that she had permanent brain damage no dude jesus
21:13 yeah and i want this hot ass girl to keep chasing me how old were you 17. okay you're forgiven because i was a minor yeah but i'll forgive but i won't forget that's ████ normal your story made me hurt so hurt that i hate you yeah this is joe again that is a crazy ████ i got nothing after that bro i will say thank you for sharing because that is ████ because i will never share my breakup story but that is why because that's man that's some deep ████ that must have ████ with your heart and mind for a while like last year i was trying to figure out how to find her again because i only have like one connection to her which is like one of her other cousins and he was like i have no idea like where she is or what tried facebook if anybody else told that story it's a complete ████ story you know it's right i thought it was you know what's crazy is like to this day her like there's an anagram of her name that
22:04 like between me and her and that's still the password to all my ████ yeah to this day oh that's kind of weird as all of it is man i hope you forgive yourself dude oh i ████ had to if i ████ forgot it ever happened yeah i just remembered it like never it's so crazy somewhere that is pretty crazy yeah i mean that's just like because you have no ████ control over like most of the disastrous things that happened there like i didn't have i wouldn't have a hand in that it's just like mostly like it just happened to change yeah it's just like a reflexive ████ like how did i know that that would even go down that way yeah did you look yourself in the mirror and go yeah what are you gonna do hey we gonna do it hey hey you know 17 year olds am i right tomato tomorrow
22:57 that's the best way to cope you know just channel your inner sabaro [Music] [Applause] [Music] you
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