0:00 thank you [Music] welcome to a very special episode of careful boys where we are currently off the Record and today we're talking about moments of doubt that you had we're all every day in relationships but we're what were your first moments of doubt in your room in the relationship okay Anthony goes first yeah he's gonna care for him all right let's go I'm cool I'll go first let's go so I've been with my lady since we were in high school so I thought how many years now first can we give Nick a round of applause for going first and actually wow wow that's the first Super commendable you know what I totally agree with you guys that's so crazy I just didn't notice that people denied it
0:51 you know hey don't use me to dunk on Anthony okay what what no one would ever do that don't do that that's not cool you guys are doggy on me again meanwhile you can purchase this bear brick that is available on our website or at kansas.com what's the difference between this and a Dunning uh this one's more successful in swaggy why don't you just use that money get JK patreon and get crypto Corner patreon get the ████ out of here both of those places I abuse and use just chilling everything right now what else do you want to say
1:43 is way better okay go ahead anyway so growing uh we've been together for 13 years or whatever uh and uh we were dating in high school so the first like you're a whole Junior High and a half dude the whole like year and a half the first year and a half I was dating her I was like I don't even know if this chick even likes me in a junior or senior yeah senior year so you were actually with her officially yeah and you were in you were just like imposter syndrome as a boyfriend yeah I was like I was like do you even like me and ████ all the time she'd be like yeah what are you talking about like it's just because the way she would show love or whatever it was like very different than the way like yeah I would oh so what was it was it she would she didn't say I love you or what how does she show love and how do you receive it yeah I think she's more of a quality time type of lady you know and I'm more of like
2:33 touch me hug me when she was like she was like stop hugging me so much like I get claustrophobic please stop oh ████ she's like she was like that and I was like what the ████ dude she hates me bro can I still do that you say you like me but why would you not hug the person that you like that's what I would say all the time when I'm whining about it yeah chicks love that especially when I'm trying to be a man I didn't know you were a physical touch kind of guy no wonder you do the Jiu Jitsu I think so I like to touch my friends too maybe that's why he loses all the time because he doesn't know they're supposed to beat them oh this guy loves me I'm just having fun I was like you wanna take my back next how did you get through that with her uh I just got older and I started to realize that like oh you're just so ████ in your own head about ████ but like that's not there I think it took me
3:23 a while though it took me and then you know beating my lady down with questions all the time and her just being like no like what are you talking about like it's such an insecure age no for sure dude and I I feel like I feel like that was just a huge my own issue type of deal you know but and I knew it was like I'm the only one that felt this way so it's ████ weird you were like I feel like you love me more than no I love you more than you love me yeah no yeah I would say dude all the Christians and you're like oh yeah dude that just makes my ████ just get that cringe feel on yourself is that a common Korean thing because my ex- Korean girlfriend said that to me she hung out she hung up on me she was like I think um we have to break up and I'm like why she goes because I love you more than you love me and I'm like how you know that and she hung up and I was
4:14 like what the ████ that's just ████ dude she just want you to chase her and then and then she called back she goes [Music] yeah oh God and I'm like I just want to break up because you crazy now yeah I did the same ████ though on the other way too yeah like saying that ████ like I think I like it more than you like me and ████ oh yeah I think I think a lot of guys have done that ████ but you know I think it's very common I think whether you say it or not it's probably like part of the maturing process but you have those thoughts yeah 100 yeah and also didn't share it with her like that often because I knew like if I say this I'm putting myself in a really ████ weird spot so I would like internalize it and then like and then sometimes I would be like looking for evidence in our relationship to prove that to my head oh no so like that was like a weird thing for me too but over time it was just like such a weird
5:05 mindset and I think did you guys ever like break up or take a break no really no never once since high school yeah wow we're like I forgot we got some like argument when we were like younger about some ████ I forgot it was maybe like two years in or something and she was like we should take a break and then my dumb ass well at the time I probably didn't handle this right but my mindset was like what's the point of us going on a break like we might as well either talk about it or yeah like come to resolution or we just ████ end it and call it quits I don't know if that's the right thing to do that's my same logic though I think the same thing I don't understand what a break is yeah like what is this called I've had it before because I just complied yeah it means you can go ████ around yes is that what it means it's like I didn't know that I got a break shoot into single life exactly well if I ████ knew about that I would have had
5:56 more fun more breaks seriously I was just like hmm what do I gotta think about it there's a break seriously but because brakes you're supposed to rest so I sat down yeah yeah it's true people that can't take the Band-Aid thing you know yeah yeah exactly they want to break up but they don't know how to do it yeah and they've been together for so long they're like let's take a break because I can see what happens right it's like a soft launch exactly yeah biggest fight or conflict that you you guys ever had it was usually some combination of like me not understanding what the issue was that she had and it was about like and it was her trying to make me understand what the issue was so like for instance it was like um
6:46 I don't want to get into specific why not why not because it's you know what was it two on Tuesday or that the party doesn't want to say no it was just like um we just looked at an issue two different ways right so like she'd be looking at an issue say with yeah with an uncle or something like oh his uncle's ████ rude ████ or whatever he's he's he sucks he's the worst and I'll be like no you don't understand my uncle he's just like this you know like that type of stuff but it was over a while I started to realize where she was coming from with the issue that she had with somebody or something or the uncle or whatever I appreciate you trying to stop your own deflection yeah I know okay also like ████ opening up like a
7:37 firework of ideas and options and I don't know where you're going to try it honestly I'm confused because he's the dude that vowed never to look at titties again and he's like [Laughter] peripherals I'm confused as ████ but I do like this ████ you dude that's good I like when he dumps ████ you getting um
8:36 thumbnail I kind of see what you're saying no but you have to replace his vague now prone like nouns with like more important people and that's probably what he's trying to say okay how about this so it's more family beef a little like yeah family ████ but then also too it's like my dumbass doesn't even understand certain things that's going on so I have to be more like present with some of those issues so then I could be like oh okay and just have more of understanding be more empathetic more of one of those like she didn't feel you got her back in a familial situation like stuff like that uh what the ████ is going on yeah how about what the ████ is going on yeah how about what the ████ what's going on how about yeah dude how about that how about I didn't want to say yeah but now uh my back's against the wall and I gotta say yeah okay so yeah for sure and then this Uncle world is yeah I mean
9:27 yeah or yeah yeah yeah okay I was trying to find a way to beat around the bush and I was like I'm not going to be having your chicks back with family it's pretty generic General yeah or just you know why is that something you want to beat around the bush for I don't know I don't know why I didn't want to share it but as I'm saying it man hey appreciate it no why are you on YouTube [Laughter] because Bart asked me to come like that hey man some things happened today just wanted to check my feelings but uh I don't know which ones but the you know it's just about kind of like uncertainty this house behind him is blurred out it's completely blurred out yeah everything that's true it's shown that's
10:18 true when his wife like talks like she's got the ████ CAA Darkness I'm not gonna show her face ever ever dude ever thank you for opening up in the most Vegas hey bro I'm sweating dude okay we can actually stop giving Nick credit for opening up again because now he's closed back up like a ████ schedule too I'm like sometimes I really feel when you guys ask me certain questions I'm like I honestly just don't have a really good answer like if I'm Gonna Keep it a buck I think I'm very boring in general so it's like when you guys ask certain things I'm like oh I don't think I've ever done that I've never ████ a fan okay dude I'm not a fan ████ I like the water you on YouTube honestly I don't even know how you why I'm here he got dragged in by Megan Bart
11:09 he just decided to stay this is the most Nick episode ever see what happens when you don't go first we get this we get I'm still somehow I'll fall we get your ████ fault like hey this is what I had for ████ lunch try to guess that's what we get dude hey this is fun let's guess more things about my life and I'll try to explain to you guys and not Beat Around the bush what else do you guys want to know I'm an open book baby like it's like we like we like misprompted the chat GPT and it's just going I don't know Jason Chen ████ talk about their lives all day oh my God the Taiwanese ████ up Podcast of all time Jason Cheney and Nick deflection Channel I understand Jason Olympics I understand Jason Cheney because he explains things the way I
11:59 would explain things and then I see your guys react Taiwanese deflectors and I'm like oh yeah I would be annoyed too if I was like the difference is he stops though yeah I keep going you're trying to talk your way out of the Mage it just goes they keep getting stuck it's like me walking into the same wall over and over again you're filibustering yourself too many extra ████ words that don't go anywhere why he's explaining I was like yeah I don't think I'm explaining that am I am I talking news sometimes okay yeah we keep on going with this we're gonna get everybody else have doubts in the relationship is that the prompt yeah what about you Bart dude I remember my first moment of doubt my first moment of doubt in a relationship when I was serious was same ████ same ████ High School right but I'm actually going to tell you what the ████ happened
12:49 [Laughter] I I was really like you know what you feel like is in love but you're infatuated with this chick right and then she liked the lead singer of Incubus oh dude Brandon Boyd yeah she's like that guy Brandon he's dead he's dead now no no oh yeah yeah no he's dead ████ beat his ass exactly so so then that's how Nick could change he was cool man so then yeah he was cool and like he was like a hot cute boy and all ████ and then I just remember being so deeply insecure about it yeah and like being like you ████ love him still don't you and ████ what's your Mario because she like had like in her notebooks and ████ she loves them and ████ and I was like you ████ oh you ████ love him and then I remember one time uh the easily the most ████ made moment I ever can remember I remember one time I'm sitting there
13:39 with her and you're just so ████ deeply insecure at that age and and you're like you're like I just I just like I was looking at her and I was like you're ████ thinking about how you love about it threaded boy no more we're like in her bedroom dude yeah and what you say she said yeah pretty good read proud of a mental you'll like to be the number two no ████ who wants to be number two but now my wife is basically married to Eminem and you shared it you share her you can break share her uh yeah she's still yours bro yeah exactly and you're slowly looking more like him every day oh ████ come on you gotta play ball so there you go I ████ shared it all you want to go again can you put my deepest darkest moment of like oh that's
14:30 ████ boy ████ it is really funny I feel like what I shared in our early relationship was pretty ████ boy what what I said about I don't even know what you said no details yeah you gave some Webster's Dictionary definition of like a conflict at the later life stuff when I was a kid and I was like oh you don't love me I love you like I love you more than you love me that's pretty ████ I mean it's pretty good right I was gonna share but it but it didn't have branded boys um have like a a girlfriend and then like go to college or something like that and you weren't in the same school or Junior High School some sort of oh that's yeah yeah grade transfer type it's a thing I remember having uh I I was a senior and she was a junior and we were together and then I graduated this is like one of my first like longer term girlfriends I
15:20 graduated I go to UCI but she's still in high school and I had no idea how to navigate this right let's talk oh that's tight um it's just one of those things where like out of sight like it's it's way more complex you're just like not you're not great with Communications maybe like ████ you're not great on the cell phone whatever it is slash is a ████ ton of like intelligent women that are suddenly on so that's what it's mostly you're about to say banging honey yeah what are you talking that's so low so that's what it mostly isn't academics but hot Scholars yeah the hot Scholars heavy bras there's still a lot of Asians and that's cool it's not so much but but yeah it was just a I think navigate did anybody else have to navigate something like that maybe we were not like what's the question keep going keep going and then so what happened what was it I maybe only lasted
16:10 like a month and a half but I feel like that first like month because you lost the will to fight for it but doubt like just constantly like you're like no but like I love this you know I love this person but then you're constantly like how is this gonna work like I got my whole life ahead of me were you doubting you or doubting her or doubting the relationship relationship yeah because Tuesday she's still like a great human being in person and like you know every now and then I'm still in touch with her but it's like knowing especially at that age too like you're like I don't know how I'm gonna make this work plus like you know you're so stupid and ignorant at that time but when you go to college too suddenly the gap between high school and college feels so oh massive it's massive dude yeah oh man like yeah now you're hanging out with like 21 year olds all of a sudden like it's PS2 to PS5 yeah so it's like why would I go back I went through one of those but I remember sitting through like a month and a half of just doubt especially if
17:02 the school has graduate school too then there's 25 to 30 year olds walking around and you're like I'm in a ████ adult ass place did she dump it dump it with you or did you jump with her I think just the energy slowly started moving that direction and then like we kind of had a hard talk but I think she was really mature about it and like was understanding and let me off the hook really easy you broke her heart I didn't I don't think so Anthony's a heartbreaker I don't think I I have always had pretty amicable like endings of relationships that's what a heartbreaker would say to you yeah Heartbreakers say that all the time do you actually think that she she maybe was like just being cool or do you think that she was like maybe um not like kind of a word too this is devastated I I think she was being more cool than she was over it but I also think that I was trying to be cool versus like over it you know okay yeah I
17:52 think it also like even the crazy thing is like wow I never spoke about this but this is fun um the crazy thing was there's also this girl in my dorm right after that and me and her clicked like really well but I had I was so like I was such a ████ about it I just got a relationship that I could not make any moves and then things she knew that I just got out of relationship and she just got out of a relationship too so she also couldn't make any moves and then it was just known that like we both were into each other in our freshman year but never did anything how come you didn't try to revisit I don't know sophomore year or something yeah sometimes when the when the door you know closes it just it closes damn Jesus said that he did say that The One That Got Away he's labeled he labels it for you it's like totally not what he's thinking
18:43 the title of this is One That Got Away dude I bet you were you were that guy for a lot of girls um what about your uncle nothing about medical dude hell yeah he is yeah for sure right all hot guys are he's a heartbreaker dude I was fat boy that chick was like oh you should probably like totally date other chicks like I'm totally good with it wait you're a fat during college too no you weren't fat in college man when did you lose your weight oh and also right after college I was fat before college and after college you lost it for college you were ready to go dude your prime time baby damn I was actually scrawny though so it really wasn't that cool Paul lanky yeah cool lanky guy did you like six foot though but that's already like advantage over most like average Asian Heights just any person dude how tall are you it's not 12. like 12. and when I kissed you earlier
19:35 you got nice lips was it yeah no I I just got mad at you I was ready I didn't even ████ flip do it right now dude but then you still won't be opening up will you see yeah dude red-handed ████ you dude what about you do you have any doubts oh look the video's over foreign
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