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Off The Record: The Boyz Talk About Crying

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0:00 [Music] welcome back to careful boys we're very very careful boys i'd like to be oh carefully so today we're going to talk about the last time that we cried oh ████ who's going to go first it takes a real man by the way i cry a lot i think but not like i'm not to the point where i'm like you know like all in but i do get teary-eyed over a lot of people like what like recently don't say movie ████ cuz i always cry movies oh not a movie okay all right that's hard that's hard yeah movies like dog videos real ████ ████ you real life bro i think i i always cry on the airplane really but movies that's why but then before that you're sucked in for some reason yeah and then like the air and the lack of oxygen or whatever it is it's just ████ tears fall out dude yeah for stupid reason that doesn't

0:51 count sorry i gotta say that there's a very strong movie moment that didn't make you cry that i wouldn't mind sharing with you guys i cry in every movie i was on an airplane right and uh i remember i was sitting in front of uh vein was on the same flight on my crew ving and his wife gabby right and i'm sitting between two super big fat guys too right and then i turned around one point in the movie it the international flight i look back and they're both bawling i'm like what the ████ right they're like dude you gotta watch this movie the line lion lion oh that movie's so good bro i cried on that ████ moment to go like dude like they no they were just crying and i turned around and i was like cracking up because you know anytime you see your home you cry no matter what it is oh you knew them do they do they wipe their tears are they shaved like no they're not ashamed at all they're just for but they are wiping they're just like oh my god and they're like you gotta watch this movie line and i was like dude i'm not gonna ████ watch a sad movie by myself if you're between

1:42 these two huge dudes and just cry myself right so i'm like ████ i'm not watching that movie so good i'm not watching that ████ so i put on another movie the movie ends up being a movie called the monster calls a month who's in that uh i don't remember the kid's name but it's it ends up being uh rosie perez yeah it ends up being this kid in this movie where um he like uh something about like his is one of his parents committed suicide or something like that right and so the way that he wanted to cope with it is he retreats into his imagination so there's this like giant monster in it and stuff like that that kind of like walks and i've heard about this movie it ends up being a super really really sad thing next thing you know i'm ████ bawling on this plane by myself between these two huge dudes and it's like yo yo i look around i turned back to them like did you wash line i'm like no that's another one

2:33 i was watching rumble in the bronx the bottle part where the glasses will shut yeah and meanwhile the monster was like it was in so much pain i didn't do anything and then the mom and the monster movie the monster was like how long but but i will say i've noticed that you son of a ████ notice this about myself and i think it's a i think it's an asian dude thing an asian dude and an asian dad thing anytime that that complex or trope shows up in movies which trope the i the father-son relationship that ████ kills me every i cry every time like in tron and guardians of galaxy 2 same thing the 5 if it's a father-son trope knocks me out every time anything terrible and tragic can happen i won't ████ cry the second you go into some father-son ████ i don't know i just that's how that's how my dad

3:24 cried uh last week when he came to visit so we were uh helping my dad get his house cuz he moved here and um you know having an asian dad you expect him to nothing is good enough everything ████ sucks what the ████ are we doing get it over with right that's the usual like what um that's the usual response i get for everything like i might try this dim sum it's so ████ good oh this is hong kong with 10 times better i'm like whatever yeah it's always like that right so we take them to the community we got a house in he walks in he looks around i see his eyes kind of like open up and it's not like like super nice or anything but it's like clean and i'm like what do you think and he goes oh it's beautiful in here i'm like oh ████ okay so like the vibes already feel good ████ positivity yeah so the vibes felt good so i was like oh you want to walk to like the uh

4:15 to a house that has the frames up so you could kind of see um like what the the floor plan would look like he's like sure so we're walking and we're just talking like uh like dad and son and it's way different than usual and he's telling me he watches all the vlogs because he gets to see taika grow up and all that stuff and then i told him i'm like you know it's one of my favorite moments because we're just sharing your favorite taco moments what are you walking in a closet dad so i told them i was like i was like i was like you know it's one of my favorite moments with taika he will randomly grab me and look at me and go you're the best papa in the world and nothing else to compare with you you'll see no one other dad wait another time i told my dad that my dad just started tearing up because he's all like i sucked so hard well maybe he's happy for me your dad

5:05 was a closet for many years or maybe like i think what made him tear is though these are types of emotions he number number one has never felt when he saw taika do that to you know when i told him this story i think these are emotions he's never felt always wanted but also doesn't know how to articulate it yeah so by him telling me and obviously my dad tried his best even if by ████ me in the closet he still tried his best right so i think by hit by me sharing this story it hit him too yeah like he was also because he raised a good son who got that obviously yeah so he started crying and i was i started tearing up the nose maybe he's gotta lock a ████ kid in the closet and then he'll buy you a house dude ████ my dad any father-son trump that ████ hits so hard for asian people i mean i'm not

5:55 saying just asia i'm just saying like i know consistently only asians okay the galaxy two that was two asian dudes ████ star-lord and ████ what's this guy's name yeah luke skywalker's dude who's asian as hell hey you should be a break alexis i remember um there was a scene at the end of blow it's a drug dealing movie he's like i cried so hard during i did bro it caught me off ████ guard and it was a it was a it was a it was a father-daughter situation but the same i think you're pulling on a heart string here because it was the same situation where he ████ up his life and then he was gonna do one last move exit leave with the family all this stuff right and his daughter never came to visit him and he started going crazy and and he kept thinking oh she's gonna come and she never did

6:46 right right yeah yeah that was that was rough spoiler alert guys spoiler alert i know but don't forget it sorry that still doesn't count though you still have to tell a story where you cried non non-cinnamon related the last time i actually cried like lost controlled like painful cry was when my dog died so then yeah got murdered by ████ coyotes and ████ you know i that was like a long like uncontrollable weeks of crying like somebody very i didn't even cry like that when my grandma died and she basically was more of a mother than my mom was yeah because i spent more hours with her right so like my grandma passed i was like oh ████ damn well we were all waiting for that weren't we you know but then the dog stuff was like it felt like i lost a child man i know i know that uncontrollable cry because that was the last time i did two when my dog died it's crazy uncontrollable it's weird you

7:37 didn't know you had that type of emotion in you no i was like when is this gonna ████ end bro it's like i'm gonna cry right now yo was your dog also surprised passing away yeah liver liver failure she was five years old a little chihuahua that i like traded dodger tickets for in the back of the truck so i named her dede for dodger dog uh that's ████ sick and then i was in china and i was in china for like three weeks and then my sister was trying to reach me but she couldn't reach me because the internet was bad so she could so she reached my song right and then mike was like yo your sister is trying to reach out to me and uh she never does so damn and i was like oh ████ something happened my ████ was overseas ████ too i was in japan worse and you feel so out of it you're not there you're not there when it happens way harder if you're not there yeah and i never knew that i would react in such a way for an animal but i think also

8:27 um that's the only thing i actually loved and and put a lot of emotions into like even you know in my personal relationship at the time with with my significant other or whatever i uh i wasn't even fully 100 um vulnerable yeah so then like an animal they they give you unconditional love because they have to you know what i mean like well it's not even human love but then you know you project a lot of that human emotion into an animal right and then it's and it's safe because you know they can't cheat on you they can't ████ you over they can't do a lot of stuff so then uh you you you give all of that to one being that ████ ████ you up looking like a guy who needs therapy [Laughter] i won't even cry my own mama dies but if my pet rat goes

9:17 like that's unconditional love i've heard that about you too i've heard that you were never you're never quite the same since you're since your dog died i've heard that no like it was it was a weird you know what though it's like um i think it's bittersweet because once you uh don't have that anymore you're forced to open up and maybe replace it by loving people around you yeah you used to trust people now yeah yeah so it came from like isolation dog teaching me how to be human and then dog going away but then now um set me up to start loving humans again so it is a weird most beautiful thing i've ever heard this is my eyes are getting heavy right now today's video is brought to you by curology i love curology man they sent

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13:30 even walk it was and then it was hard because my dog was always really like jumpy so you could never hug him but then when he we put him asleep i had to hug him to like hold him and that was the first time i could ever hug him without him jumping out and it was just because he was too tired yeah it was just done damn hold on dude that's some deep ████ man ████ dude i thought this is jk news yeah what the ████ is this just cry news bro ████ cry with a k right now we're modern men all right we're careful boys and modern men hey it's okay to offset that it's okay to cry guys [Laughter] this this borderline doesn't count but i cried way the ████ harder for this this is in 2001 and i cried at the ending of final fantasy 10.

14:23 yeah that's so ryan dude but i like i cried like the hardest i've ever cried in my life was that the end of the game like it was never it was the ending of like the story and the way that it ends was so freaking sad that like i so i was playing all night right and then i had to go to ████ community college that morning i get there and i go to my ████ speech class i'm failing and the teacher is just like what happened to ryan like he looks so sad and she was asking my friends i wasn't talking to anyone i'm like ████ 18. and she's just like she asked my friend like is he okay like my friend's like obviously 911 is affecting him a lot he tells her he goes like i think he broke up with his girl or something and she comes up and she's like hey if you don't want to do work today it's like fun that's nice and she gave me a d and i passed it what if it was like it's

15:14 worse than a breakup with my girlfriend final fantasy i say that ████ but that's really all it was but my eyes were ████ wild jackie context you guys gotta understand ryan is the biggest final fantasy fan i've ever met in my entire life but that's like lifelong ████ though and he level seriously recreated final fantasy and digitized pixelated form with all of his friends even kendra's were in it too he like remade the game like he's ████ die hard he knows how to play every song from it like it's intense it's to an unhealthy degree but basically that was the saddest thing that happened to you in 2001 uh a significant year for i think a lot of people space odyssey that was a tough movie too yeah space honestly thank you but that's the place my mind goes because every like for some reason every every time i date someone new and that girl asks like when's the last time you cry i've never seen you cry and my mind always goes to

16:04 that and i never want to share it because it's so ████ lame but it's real though it's real oh i remember a ████ another time i cried um uh i had a one-night stand and it was ████ like i got damn man i ████ it was good it was like a lie oh damn man it was ████ good not like i didn't i wasn't expecting you you over performed yeah you were quiet how hard you smashed that ████ that wasn't even no like i didn't even try because oh ████ i'll last three minutes today what the ████ noise today yeah he broke the four minute mile like that was the equivalent i did a perfect performance it was given to me no i like no it was like i liked it so much right it was so good i was single right

16:55 but then i had a crush on somebody so i felt like i cheated on my crush i was like why must i be so ████ honorable and ████ oh interesting you're loyal dude last time but the ████ was so good and then she had surprise breasts like it was surprised you know like you know when someone's like they don't look big and then when they take off their clothes it flops and you're like wow wow and then you have sex because during that time you can't think of nothing else but that and you're legally allowed to because you're single it's true but illegally your inner heart belongs to someone else thanks to legislation yeah underground this person i never even met before i'm hearing these guys stories i'm like oh man i'm hearing your story did you think about the the girl you crush on during sex with this other girl

17:46 oh you put your crush's face on her face no no no no no i came and then and saw and i came right and then um yeah and then i was worried no she left the hotel right the next day she left the hotel and then like i was facetiming um the girl i had a crush on right took a shower while talking to her and then as i was showering she masturbated and then a part of me just felt like oh you son of a ████ dude wait wait wait you son of a ████ what did she masturbate was sitting again you were face timing and we ████ okay and i felt so dirty because the day before i had go in my hotel room and then the next day i'm facetiming with the girl that i'm um loyal to in my and just like it's like just yeah i know oh

18:37 yeah i get all right just the masturbation parts through me i i missed it it was killing me inside because of the guilt so talking on the phone and then and as i'm talking to her on my phone i start crying and i'm just crying and and i'm just so guilty the shower jack and all she's jokingly subscribed after i come after i come you told so you told her no no that's why it was killing me inside but she knows now did you tell her why you were crying no it was something i bullshitted i it was it was something else right i know i ████ about something else i think that was the part that really hurt me because like i wanted to tell her yeah i wanted you know cause like at the end of the day like it's i'm single right but then like i'm really i didn't know that i was that interested in someone i was talking to online you know

19:29 so like there's like six or seven girls around the world that have phone sex with him while he was in the shower right now that are questioning ████ like ████ like i thought our photos were special i guess not that special right they're like he did cry at the end of mine but that was a different story like was i the one with the surprise titties they're all checking do they come out are they coming out the right way oh nick no when were your crime boy real quick the last time i like i hard cried like balling was i was like 2019 i went to singapore with my family and my girl and i was the first time we were engaged first time i seen my family in singapore since i was like like seven or eight oh wow and i was 27. so i'm seeing all my family family i haven't seen in so long um

20:21 and i'm just spending all the time with everybody and for some reason we're flying home and it was there was a lot of yeah there was it was just seeing a lot of family and a little drama here and there family drama and ████ but for some reason i just on the way home i just felt like like i just needed to cry like i just felt so overwhelmed with like in a train no no we're flying home oh in the airplane and they're playing see there's something about the ████ airplane that make people cry dude and i just felt like very fortunate for some reason but i also felt really sad with some ████ that happened on the trip whatever but i just felt really overwhelmed with emotions to the point where i just don't i just started bawling and i just couldn't help it i was just like crying i'm like crying into my girl's arms bro like and i'm like sobbing i'm like loud crying honestly i understand why you're crying she knew she was right and i'm ████ like this was she knew but you didn't know kind of well well in a way where it was just

21:12 like it was just an emotional like it was just i don't know what there was a little there was stuff that happened where we kind of had some issues like talking up like did you suppress like emotions yeah for sure for sure there was a lot of like a lot of stressful situations but also it felt very complicated because a lot of issues with like my immediate family but felt so much love and and and like um rekindling relationships with family i haven't seen in years like my whole life and so that was like really conflicting and i felt really happy that i went but i also felt really sad because a lot of ████ happened from that trip and i just remember i was like crying for like 15 minutes bro like to the point where i was like exhausted like you know wow and it just felt really ████ weird but it was uh yeah it was it was that was the only time i like where i really felt like completely overwhelmed like i felt like an adrenaline dump like i just was like so tired afterwards that's that dog

22:03 death cry yeah and and honestly i could equate that so like when my golden retriever died when i was like like like 12 13 years old and i'm sobbing over like my dead like my ████ dead dog you know but besides that like i haven't really hard cried in a really long time like that you have to put your dog to sleep or something no we found our dog dead oh that's the worst yeah dude and i don't want no dogs man i gotta pick up dog ████ and cry this was sad man ████ bro why did you guys want to talk about crying ████ i don't know well we you know we're trying to make it everyone crying talk about this if i mine was recent mine was pretty recent right so um you know uh i for years tried to get my family to cryptocurrency stuff of course and uh you know and i'll be i'll be just

22:55 completely 100 right so um my family uh made fun instead and like really i thought it was mean yeah that was a little vicious in fact it was like they went in like yeah might as well set my money that's where you get the roasting from yeah yeah thanks guys might as well set my money on fire all that kind of stuff right and so and for me i and and also there was one particular christmas too where i was telling my my little brother who ended up my little brother kenny who ended up going with me on this entire crypto journey and he's done very very well and um i remember telling him i was like hey dude uh crypt is not over like people i know like everyone thinks it's over and stuff but it's not over and if you buy like now if you really take it seriously right now you're gonna change your life and he um and i was saying this to everybody there but they were all treating me like i was a leper like my own family

23:45 which sucks you know because you love them and you're you're there to see them and they they wouldn't even address me like look at me anything it was weird but my brother wait they actually thought you're some like cultist yeah you join a cult or something like can i ask you a question about that like when you're talking to your family about that ████ and they're reacting a certain way does that ever make you kind of like second guess or doubt at all no i just well it's not even that it's not even that i i i was like i know what i'm doing promise you if you listen to me but they wouldn't even just do that or even respect what my passion is that's it so so so then um you know fast forward to now um or even just like when i started crypto corner you know there are people who you could argue who are strangers right who i don't know in real life but they give me more love than my own family does because

24:36 you know doing getting into crypticorn they change their lives and they they let me know how they change their lives and like hi i'm 25 years old or i'm 24 years old i just bought a house because i know steve green and i and i i trusted him and i'm like you can't see so many people but but and then like there's several people who are millionaires right now and they're like dude i wouldn't have been here if i didn't if i didn't listen to you right and stuff like that just it you know makes it's the opposite of feeling like i'm the king of the world it's it's a very humbling thing because you're like man i you know it's crazy to think that um you've had an effect on people but really i'm just so proud of you that you took that because i've seen so many people that i've given the info to get affected by so many other people that they that they meet who tell them no no that's all scam don't worry or they listen to their dad who's like oh no i just read it on on cnbc it's a scam so

25:27 don't worry it's a scam got you right and so so those people fall by the wayside but then you know i'm getting love from people that i don't really quote know but then i feel like i know them and i'm getting more love from them than i do the people in my own circle yeah and so yeah i you know i was on a on a particular day where a couple people hit the million um and they told me and they were very nice and sent me a bunch of nice things about it um i i broke down on me and nikki's podcast at the end of it because we were talking about how the year went and stuff and yeah i just finally let it all go because i've been piling up for so long and stuff and uh it was really good for me it was really good for me because i i'm a person who allows those little moments to build and i use them to propel me and it really has been great for me i i'm actually very grateful like i like i'm i'm grateful that i got bullied as a kid too because

26:17 it made me who i am today like the same way yeah you're you're a revenge porn kind of guy i am yeah i i like to i like to beat people who think i'm wrong about something and i and i you have to wake up every day and do the work though so so like but i need that little bit of a thing it's a little slight that you gave me that you got a little david saw in you dude yeah hey we're buds he's done really well uh so but that's what i mean like it's it's um yeah so i i lost it over that and it was great it was good for me but that's ████ crazy though yeah that's deep yeah because you let them you let them in they're vulnerable to them yeah dude that's why doc just love a dog ████ your family anyway thanks guys good talk [Music]

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