0:00 yeah tell up to white kids talking to each other remarkable colen Stellar dude to go excellent work take us to the [Music] topen welcome back to a highly essential episode careful boys we have Anthony right here we got regular Joe we got regular Nick Colleen and the superior Joseph Cool Joe over here uh you may not have an example of this but uh if you do I think it'd be really helpful to share but uh was there ever a time in your life anywhere that you genuinely felt excluded from something oh dude yeah in high school what happened in high school in high school in San Jose mhm what
0:50 happened was it what was what were you like in high school um I was a basketball player I did track um but uh my school is predominantly Asian yes did that bum you out no no no no push him in the corner pushing like man I even got no I even got yellow fever so no no no hey was it cuz all of your teammates were so short and you were just like man I feel so left out I'm like the best player in this ████ all you guys suck I want to get dunked on too no I felt like uh I don't know like for me I don't really like even like till this day like whenever I go to like work or something like that go to work come home and just chill I like just being a home body I like just chilling stuff like that relaxing um so
1:42 I felt like in in high school you know all my phow freedom friends were like get together go out eat and stuff like that but I was never really like invited but I was always like in the social group to where it's like I was always bouncing around between like this group and this group and this group so I never had like an actual like Core Group it was just like me and probably like one other friend and then we would just bounce just be cool with every and just be cool but yeah I kind of felt left out because they would go do cool some like cool stuff like outside of school sometimes and then you know I wouldn't be there damn that's pretty much about that sounds pathetic n it's not really that bad it's not really that bad it's not really that I tried to make it sound worse than it was but you know to somebody that does yeah like
2:32 people have experiences like that all the time for sure for sure for I've talked about this before too but like you know kids are so ████ they're such dicks when when you know we're all young and stuff like that I remember uh when I was at same thing if I was in high school it's like I wasn't Korean there's hell Korean people there so it's like I'm clearly an outlier in that group but then with the Chinese people hell Chinese people I was like not fully Chinese cuz I didn't speak Chinese so that'd be like the Vietnamese of me I had that with the black community it's like I'm not dark enough to be black or stuff like that so you never really fully get in there you don't get invited to certain stuff or then like in my Vietnamese Boy Scout Troop that I was in too the only problem was I was still Chinese there not fully Vietnamese so like you I was just constantly never enough of something to be a part of I feel like if you're mixed you have that
3:22 problem a lot too that's true so it took me a long time thinking that my mixed element was uh something that was a hindrance and you know I metion here before but it wasn't until I was like a grown ass adult that I was like no this is like my superpower you know I'm whatever it is when I want it to be ████ like this convenient for me right now is what I am you know you can't deny that so it I was definitely excluded a lot did did they call that out or it was just something that happened people would call it out they're like you're China boy you're like you're not Chinese but you're Vietnamese espe at that is sh that's how I got the ancestry DNA test cuz you know same thing same thing that's interesting it is interesting too that like if you were in sports like to somebody like me if I was in your school I would just think automatically you're cooler but then I wouldn't even think a guy like you would ever feel excluded I would
4:14 assume like like if me and like 10 other Filipino guys my height was in next to you in school and we went and did something I would feel weird inviting you cuz I would assume you wouldn't even want to hang with this yeah I think that was like a lot a lot of the things too cuz I it it was High School is kind of weird for me because like I never felt like I was popular but I was popular as ████ for some reason like I got nominated for prom King I had two prom dates like I two prom dates that's hey that's that's a lot cooler than prom King you asked out two girls and you got two prom dates yeah I took two best friends oh that's cool at the same time at the same prom you took two so yeah who's done that before look at his face that's crazy trying to put an extra Spotlight on you because he was prom King too and he took didn't have two dates
5:05 though yeah only had one date oh see that's where you messed up bro and that's I I wa but did you win prom King though no yeah me neither it was some person that was like part of yearbook committee that knew when ████ yearbook people dude nepotism neptis we just misuse it every time they have the inside scoop dude the ████ yearbook people they're ████ they're it's all inside dude they got they got it all figure they're the ones that control everything they put the yearbook together true their photos are all up in it I was inbook so I know yeah you're right I didn't realize but what's crazy I didn't realize like I was really that popular and then when I graduated high school I had a whole bunch of girls like come up to me that were friends were like yeah I thought you were like super cute in high school this and that and I'm just like why why didn't you tell me why didn't you tell me then why did you tell me now and I'm like all the way on
5:55 the other side of the stage like cuz you got to fly back dud hope you got some got to fly these ladies out what about you Nick has that ever happened to you the only time I really felt like excluded was by my own family dude no for real um ex as a young kid though as a young kid cuz you're the only guy well kind of cuz they won't let you play Princess yeah I want to be part of I could be useful princess you could have been playing Ken I could yeah but actually no I can't play Ken it's weird uh my sister my sisters were older than me six or seven years apart and they would they were like the Pod they were they would be together they would do everything together I'd always want to come in and do stuff they're like get out of here Nick I'd be like all right I'd leave but I did teach me how to like be by myself you know which was actually
6:46 a good thing though like it I kind of like would play by myself I'd ████ set things on fire by myself I would destroy things in the house by myself you know I I I'd write margarate on things by myself you sound like a real life Toy Story F no for yeah for real yeah that's a good way of actually yeah but yeah like I would just just do my own thing and then learn how to play by myself which was good I think but then also as I got older it would always be like my sisters and my parents just having their own conversations about everything and I'd just be like Yeah okay or like if some if they get in an argument and they start yelling I'd be like hey you guys like just trying to like stop yelling at each other and they're just like shut the ████ up ████ you Dad you piece of ████ and go back I'll be like hey guys come on let's let's try to lower our voices and we can
7:36 talk calmly with each other and they're like shut up you always make your parents look like Biff from like back the ████ out of my car man he's a sensible one no but seriously they would look at me like like shut the ████ up you know um but it would just be things like that but as I got older I would I realized it's like oh yeah yeah it's like it's it's just part of the age Gap it's it's part of the Dynamics and the family of like me being the youngest and I would always just kind of keep my mouth shut anyway and just be like listening um right but yeah that's about it yeah other than that it's like that's pretty big though in your own home with your family yeah but it it was a good thing though I think it's a good thing I think it's a it's a net positive overall just because you know you just learn how to figure it out you do come off with like
8:26 really good coping skills and like you know oh okay thank you you could have been playing with Barbies yeah oh I was playing with Barbies I was making on my girlfriend dude he was handling the the subplot yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah plot B dude most of my examples are people's parents saying you can't play with them anymore cuz I was a ████ Menace or Japanese I thought it was cuz you're Japanese too that was a big one the sleepover one where you're like you can't you can't sleep over that was the that was one cuz you're Japanese and yeah the but the other one was like I was playing with this uh my friend's my friend his dad's a pastor yeah and I guess like his mom was like oh he's a bad influence so it was going to look bad on her family you
9:16 might know them too they they used to be the church lalin church oh yeah and they told my mom and stuff and I was just like we're just friends isn't is doesn't it make more sense for what you do though kind what kind of things did they know that you did that would define you as a bad no this is before I was actually doing like bad ████ like I was just a kid like I was like 10 so like 10 and under they're just I was just a ████ Menace I guess oh you were just like uh like you just running around too much breaking ████ and then we just have so much fun that like I just think you know how boys like they do stupid ████ right like we get we get into we get curious so like we might be breaking sticks and it turns into like breaking something else right right and then just one thing LEDs to another
10:06 breaking in entery yeah breaking a ████ whatever me and my cousin used to uh go into like empty Apartments really like we were like little kids all right we would go into like empty apartments that weren that were vacant and we' just be like acting like it was our place hey he wants a waffles no no no so what we do we play house that's me and my sister my cousin and my brother we go and play house and then like we go to the freezer take out the Ice uh trays in there fill them up with the water put the ice tray in there act like that's our food and ████ like that that's the cutest thing I've ever heard of in my life that's the cutest b& I've ever heard what a puzzle for the person that comes in there after like who put those yeah and they're trying to make sense of every little thing like the ice tray turned over why it's like bro none of that means
10:56 anything yeah I think like it was things like that like we would get into the storage space of the church and just start looking at pictures yeah you're just curious that's true yeah but this is why we get along Joe Joe I did the same exact thing same exact thing but I think like it was too much and I I probably was an absolute Menace like cuz it was multiple kids where it was like oh they're parents and my mom just goes yeah I don't like parents that judge children she goes like we should get together as parents and she goes like it's like yeah and then she and then I don't know but she said the stuff that I did was like socially unacceptable it wasn't wrong wrong and then it it was like ████ like like I don't know like I'll be like there's a party right and like I'll get on top of the table and start dancing or some ████ and then she's like laughing and busting up while
11:46 other parents are like oh that's like inappropriate not supposed to put your feet on dude I would love to see some home video Joe get him off the pool right now yeah I feel like he's a wild thing he is he was yeah yeah so I think like that was most of it the other one would be like I wouldn't be picked when we play games for sports for sports oh yeah cuz then all types of sports even soccer I got picked for uh for football they they would I would play for soccer but basketball that's a tough that's a tough sport that's a close SP cuz they just look at you and be like no he can't ball yeah I would be the kid that would that would make it for the other team and think I scored yeah cuz I just don't
12:38 know how to play I just don't know and no one taught me how to play basketball so I would ruin the game so it makes sense right like just like elementary school and then like I would like push somebody take their ball and run with it and then like try to make it no dribbles no so I'm not playing that's why they're not picking me that kid that's so stressful there was always that kid you ruined it for the rest of them right so it's like good reason why I wasn't chosen yeah cuz I'm ruining the game but in my stupid young head I'm like I never get picked you know what I mean like I'm like later on I'm like oh yeah duh like I did stupid ████ mine's like a combination of yours when I was younger didn't get picked especially for sports but I was like I was pretty decent seemed pretty athletic though yeah what I'm saying is like I was pretty decent so I think they just
13:29 kind of just judge judge me a girl oh is that like among mostly boys or girls um just just in school like in elementary school and stuff just wouldn't get picked was it all like girls and for like group projects too also wouldn't get picked until like I did the group project and then I'd be the only one doing all the work and then I got picked a lot oh yeah because you're the one doing all the work yeah and then I'm also in combination of yours as well in high school I just would move around from group to group I'd have like a few close friends um so I I don't think I ever had like my own community in my close circle of friends so I naturally was excluded from a lot of things were you always a taller kid compared to other girls or did you like grow at a
14:19 certain like Point um I think I got a little bit taller in high school in high school yeah but I was always like pretty decently sized I don't think I ever remember being like short um but I felt short in my family cuz my brother's super tall my mom's really tall my dad was decently tall gotcha but did you when you were like a did you have a pretty girl rep growing up no I was a ugly duckling cuz that's an easy reason yeah I was definitely I was like super skinny um like very yeah listen no no Talent no potential till very late I want know that yeah none of that so when when did the potential develop the potential developed much later much later yeah damn and I was
15:10 like especially when I was younger too and I wasn't getting picked I was really shy so I think I was kind of excluded from that too because I wasn't vocal oh they're just like that random girl standing there like that yeah who knows her would they make fun of your name throwing up were kids make fun of your name um no they just make fun of how white I was how white yeah how white were they hey yeah were they white you're I mean you're pretty I mean now but like back then I was pretty ████ pale like I was almost translucent thator trans AEL I was translucent and really skinny so you know I turned to the side and like I really disappear damn so wait so it's white kids making fun of you on how white you are yeah pretty much that's tough that's real white onwhite kid crime white and white crime yeah happens everywhere dude happens everywhere I always thought if you were lighter than they would give
16:00 you props nice K keep it up you're really whing out of the St here cover yourself up that's fantastic yeah talk up to you white kids talking to each other remarkable colen Stellar dude to go excellent work take us to the top colen I knew you were going to be the one I knew you going to be the one but you still can't play with us I it take us to the top maxing it out K come back with more Talent or maybe nobody picked me because they didn't know how to say my name that might be it too say they were trying to pick you they're like I say clean like if I'm going to
16:52 clean something just emphasize the Callen which one would you prefer clean or Colleen I would prefer Colleen kin you like clean clean clean clean that's like a way Chinese person name Yeah clean that's pretty good I think like for me I didn't feel excluded much growing up until I had to go to summer school because I went to the same exact school so you knew everyone from kindergarten yeah cuz I went from kindergarten all the way to senior high school was the same people in every class oh you were SJ the whole time no I was at a before but in Adventist Union School in Bellflower it was me and like nine other kids kindergarten age five and those same kids stayed in the same class with me all the way up so I had them in high school too so I never had
17:42 the feeling of like oh I don't know anybody I got to like you know I'm the I'm the fresh fish but then I I had to go to summer school and take algebra at Don Bosco Tech and ████ that school yeah I heard no one likes that place that's that all boy School everyone makes fun of them cuz it's an all boy Catholic school where all the dudes like it's like in cell heaven really yeah because they're all boys they have no girls but then in the summer they let it be coed so now you have these boys that have never seen a girl for the whole year finally and they're all acting like idiots you know what I mean that's good though kind of funny good energy that's way to stand out too and the school I think knew that I wasn't uh Catholic and then that's when the faculty would just ████ on me all the time really yeah because I came in
18:32 there and I was like uh hey look at this Saturday worshipper yeah you go to church on Saturday we a loser you know you're not going to heaven right they were just like meaner to me like I never I never and and plus like you know SGA The Faculty is so nice to you they really like treat you like family and then I went there my first day I still had like blonde spiky hair cuz this is 1999 or something and then uh the uh the dean of discipline uh takes me into the he's like uh come with me and then we I thought they were going to give me like a welcome or something he pulls me into the uh like one of the faculty offices where they're all like having coffee or like L just sitting around just like we are and he stands me up and he goes hey guys you think a you think a kid with hair like this makes Stellar grades and they all just started laughing whoa that's a different time bro and you should you should have been like actually I make 4.0 with this and
19:26 that he was right with the stereotype what what what did you say right after that nothing I was shocked I was just I thought I really thought they were going to go hey we got a new kid like we're all going to welcome him but no it was like literally opposite what the ████ and then all of them are like they all were just like ████ up like it was like I was catching them you know when you catch your teachers when it's not teacher time and then they act a little different but this was like the bad side of that so they were all just Clowning knowing that nothing's going to happen so they were like making fun of you yeah they were all making fun of me yeah because Don Bosco Tech you ████ yeah ████ that school and plus like after that I thought I could make friends instantly with the other kids and then I get in that classroom and it's like half Vietnamese watching oh my God they're all gangsters and that's the first time I ever been called a dirty Filipino no way I never heard that like
20:16 I never put those two things together cuz Filipino people have been in my class my whole life and then these dudes were like oh you dirty Filipino and I feel like Filipino people are never like that yeah like I said what like that's a wild take did you ever tell your parents about that right after no I wasn't talking to them like that back then but I was telling my friends from my my school and what did they say and they just didn't know what to think of it cuz they they've never been to in an environment like that like we were we were sheltered we were all like 7 Day atist good like kids yeah we don't even like cuss at each other and then now like I got to deal with all these like different ecosystems of it's funny how you going to Don Bosco and it's like this Catholic school but it's more like juvenile hall it is yeah it it really was and I think like all because it's all boys they're so desperate to like be in the pecking order they're all desperate to like move up cuz all you're competing against is
21:07 other guys and then when you throw girls in the mix now they have to compete in front of somebody so it was like really weird plus my ex that just broke up with me right before Summer started started going there so she was there too I had to listen to all the guys like gawking about her and she acted like she didn't know me cuz now she's getting L attention I was like this sucks bro those that Those Years bro are tough but get old and fat they're tough no she's still decent she's still she's Korean she don't okay we got to get her fat somehow yeah somehow keep her in America we got to get her fat I like how that's the ultimate [Music]
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