0:00 thank you [Music] so there's this coder her name's Michelle Wang and she developed a really cool really well a female coder is always funny to me yeah that's true yeah of course I thought just because I said Wang all right um she took um she made this really interesting AI program that not only did she create it but she also put the instructions so we could make it ourselves if we wanted wow open source yeah it's um she took 10 years of her own diary entries from when she was a kid and she fed it into this machine that created a simulation that allows her to text chat with her younger self what the what so it's like your younger self will use the information from her
0:51 diary to formulate answers in the style of speaking that she was okay Tom Riddle what's a diary and what's a journal yeah good question it's it's like uh it's gender it's like Nosotros no satras those sat traps I failed Spanish four times so that makes sense can we see what the difference is I never knew what the difference journal in a diary yeah I'll show you right now yeah a journal is something that like a therapist will recommend you do in order to log things get things out of your mind a diary something that like a a wimp and a ████ will do in order to ████ cope with ████ don't make fun of my ████ dude you have diary I had a diary in elementary school they get they made you make your own diary with ████ like construction paper and every day it was like you have to start with dear diary wait isn't Journal like more observational and diary is more from a personal perspective don't pretend like you have
1:42 the answer this whole time and then suddenly just bring it out when people I've just been thinking about it that's fine with the question mark yeah I've been thinking about is that what it is yeah that's exactly what I told you earlier on the camera like this happened whatever whatever but it's not necessarily your own feelings that you're injecting but diary is like this is how I feel about what happened you know I think it's up to the person who's writing in it there you go this is a diary kind of the most common oh okay I see that with the lock and the journal no that looks like a sensitive Journal no that's a diary it's pink journals aren't composite notebooks this is a ████ Journal whoa whoa okay I missed those man I'm gonna trap you can do whatever you want you can shoot them with a gun you have slots for your pen and they even have a built-in clipboard on the inside yeah protective cover I couldn't afford that so I only had peachy folders that were giving out for free I remember those two yeah cool
2:32 I think when did any of you guys ever keep a journal when you were younger I tried to I did for like uh nine days after the movie Harriet the spot I came out and then I got bored are you aboard of your own journaling yeah you know who you know who made it cool um Doogie Howser into the show he would write lessons so I actually tried to I'm gonna try to like write a couple things then after like two of them I was like this is like a boy Hauser made something cool I thought it was pretty cool did you really think Doogie Allison was a character is cool yeah the kid doctor yeah that's ████ cool man let's jump him after 15. ████ this guy up sorry we have to jump up man Duke house was cool dude [Laughter]
3:23 you're my ████ hero man ████ this guy was cool kind of cool imagine the bad video yeah wow [Laughter] you ain't nothing he went bad you ain't bad but yeah that's um the crazy thing about a journal is like I remember when I was doing a journal when I was really young it was very databased and informational it's like here's what happened today but it wasn't so much how I felt it was like a police report yeah try to ground me [Laughter] I'm describing people to myself sketching them yeah but then my sister's diary which like I would find occasionally go oh it's like more about how she feels about things yeah the current state of her life I would read my sister's Diaries too and they wouldn't know and I'd be like was it
4:14 anything cool no no Intel you'd be like Nick is a ████ idiot I hate my brother he's a he's I know you're ████ reading this right now you son of a ████ or it's not one of those things where they have a crush on a guy named like Sam or something like that so they write like Sam a thousand times in a row yeah my sisters were so boring I was like how do I get my massive titties in this little top and I'm like oh my God good God a break oh you know what you know what's one real thing I did write about I think when I was like 11 there was like I did have a journal entry that where I was struggling between which girl do I like and the difference was that one of them was like really pretty and the other one was just ████ hilarious oh those were like the two things that I was torn between well I mean this was obvious yeah this is obvious this is obvious yeah let's not say let's say I'll say the funny one oh of course not at 11. I got better jokes than her I can make myself laugh can't
5:07 make yourself pretty though yeah that's true no one else kept a journal or Anthony diary or anything I would have a journal I have a journal still that I haven't written in for a long time but I still have it I said Nikki does it every ████ day and she has like I mean I don't know when we're moving I have to move like seven boxes of journals is it scheduled it's like my morning feel my night theme or it's just 20 minutes morning oh I had a lot um I do have a journal actually I stopped writing in it because um I wanted to see and log in I was waking up with um these anxiety attacks it would just come out of nowhere huh and I would just be like three in the morning and it's just like I feel like I'm being chased or whatever I can't go back to sleep and I would have them um at different times like like out of nowhere for no reason like I'm having a
5:57 blast with you guys go to sleep and I'll just wake up like ████ and I'm like oh ████ I'm at home I'm okay because I drew out a calendar and I wrote down every day like what happened how's my mood today like what are the things I'm eating like I just wanted to get down to the bottom of it yeah is it is it I'm working out or whatever so then I did that and I logged it in and and in those in between pages I would just go off on like a mental dump and I think like whatever was trapped in my head in the morning like or whether whether it be 3 A.M or whatever when that I wake up in a ████ panic I can't go back to sleep so I just write and I just write write whatever it is it's on my head and it could be as stupid as like um you know what form of martial art is the real one or like something stupid right like it doesn't ████ matter
6:49 which one is anxiety attacks like ████ what's the real martial art super unrelated things that shouldn't bother a human being or it would be like like legit like man I actually have it on my backpack I carry with me everywhere and then as soon as um the crypto crash went down I was getting them every ████ day and then um I wrote it I was writing down specifically what was going on and then with joombie building up in Hawaii and then I think like once everything started to get to this point where I have control like I could build my business I can do things um then it just all disappeared wow but
7:39 I do get them periodically in my life reassume control I think that's what it was because you were slipping because the Calamity of other things not out of your control and until journaling or whatever felt like it was the only thing I can brain dump and like centralize whatever was going on raindrop is a really good I've done that with um dreams because you ever wake up um after having a dream and gone like that dream was brilliant yeah like where like it's like man that was like a murder mystery but it made so much sense it's like every little piece of it was like so interesting you could never think of that awake exactly and then um so I so I started to um keep my you know phone next to me with the notes open and ████ and then I'd wake up and I'd write it down and then I'd read the next day I'm like oh no you think it makes sense but it's actually ████ sucks it's just that
8:29 you woke up and you're like whoa that was profound blah blah but no when you write it down and then you're just in that moment it seems like it but then the next day you're like what the ████ was I talking your understanding of it is that it's a hit exactly yeah I think it's a smash exactly the funny thing is uh did you guys ever have zanga back in the day I never had a saying that no I think it was like the journal kind of like predating most social media it probably was too many words yeah yeah any pictures back then yeah there was a thing called a Wayback machine it's a website all the old websites that don't exist anymore Wayback machine and then like I went to see if my old Zango was still up how did you even remember way back you have to remember your actual URL and then check and then it'll it'll maybe at some point in time have logged it and it did have it and the only thing on there is uh on my actual account in
9:21 2003 I remembered I deleted all of my other I used to write a s███████ of stuff on here and I remember I privated everything so I'll never see it again but there was one thing that I left and it was on September 14 2003 and it's the entire story of what happened to TJ the day after it happened whoa and I totally ████ forgot that I wrote this and then like I read it over and I was like holy ████ that's my day after understanding of like exactly what went down that's crazy does it give you Goosebumps reading yeah it's creepy as ████ because I'm also talking in a total different way it's like holy ████ like it really does feel like I'm listening to a kid from you know like a kid I barely know the same way that she did this AI thing and is talking to it it's probably it she said it gave her this like really like kind of like an out of this world feeling because it's like you
10:12 think you should know this person but you the growth between then and now is so great and I think it's greater than anyone can really like comprehend but when you're faced with like speaking to or um listening to that person and the thing that you remember in a different way now it really you see the distance like it's ████ huge yeah I'll whoop the ████ out of my younger self why slap his ass tell him to grow up a little bit better a little bit quicker yeah a little bit better like why the ████ do you want to dance you dumbass that's the thing you would change tell them to do not dance I'd probably be like don't get in there with barjo the battle Mike's song at the at the college party no just do that that one was still a good one my journal and what I have is in this little gray notebook that was given to me a long time ago um but it was because
11:02 you know I was constantly traveling and teaching and Performing or judging showcases right you know the whole ████ Dance World thing we're going and oftentimes you're by yourself right so like the the interesting thing that you realize is when you do like phenomenal things when you like experience amazing experiences and then you don't have like a very very close friend that you can like debrief with or bring that shared experience back with even when you go home you try to explain to your significant other explaining and recounting something is never the same nah yeah you know what I mean and so no matter what there's a language that it just doesn't you just can't get spoken and sometimes the only way that you feel that you can hold on to something is writing whatever it is down so I started logging and ████ into them though yeah yeah that's true true open up about that and they don't usually appreciate when you talk about your groupie conquests yeah I
11:53 didn't log those things I wasn't as successful as you Joe at ████ all my groupies not not groupies fans we don't like it at the Hannah was like like she thought it was entertaining girlfriends don't like it when you talk about when when you have sex yeah so these were wholesome great stories that I wanted to hold on to myself in case I got like Dementia or Alzheimer's or something like that but what about the groupies you ████ like I said Growers don't like it you ever do like uh would you prefer riding it or would you prefer like doing a voice note or even recording your own self like I don't like hearing myself I don't want to hear myself talking which is probably why I don't watch the show you know what's the crazy thing about memory so our memory is so ████ wild right that when you remember when you remember something about your past you're remembering the last time you thought about that memory oh ████ isn't that wild yeah
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