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"My Family Kept Me From Quitting Bootcamp" - Subin Choi

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0:00 But here you are quitting, bro. Something that's so easy, you're quitting. Like how embarrassing that would have been? You know how I told all you guys I was in boot camp and now that I got to come out, if I if I came back quitting, how embarrassing that would have been? >> It would have made some great JK videos though. >> I'm telling you, the more views. Actually, way more views. >> Welcome back to another episode of the Careful Boys. >> What if we just like whisper the whole episode? You know, we just took it down a notch. >> Remember Theo from 92.3 The Beat? And the surprise when we realized he was Japanese? >> Oh, yeah. I feel like there was just a recent like Tik Tok that like finally exposed >> Nobody knew. >> Hey yo, this is Theo. >> really good. >> What's your genuine sexy voice real quick? Is that your genuine sexy voice?

0:50 Were you turned on by it? >> A little bit, yeah. >> He got hard. >> I got move It moved. >> I feel like I'm just playing to like be like the standard stereotypical like like you the fourth singer of the R&B group, you know, is a hey baby, we're going to take you home tonight. And every single time I look you up and down, those sweaty beads will be dripping onto the back of you. >> same tone. >> Wow, how do you do that? It's very throaty. >> Um seem like in the morning we going to have the bun me. >> Oh, that's pretty sexy stuff. That's pretty good. That's pretty sexy stuff. That's pretty sexy stuff. >> I like that. I like that. >> And then from that bun me you going to done me, which means hit me. >> I think the girl's wet right now. And she's down to do anything. >> Yeah. Or the guy. >> I think hello dudes. Yeah, let's say hello dudes. >> I'm going to make your ████ a refugee, man. No home to go back to.

1:40 >> [laughter] >> Oh, ████ >> that even mean? Okay. Serious conversation. Just because obviously you had just gone through boot camp, I can only imagine how difficult that ████ must have been, but what's a moment you genuinely thought I might not make it through this, yet you found that gusto to come come out on the other side. We now know that you you get horny in order to like endure some of the most difficult things. >> What the ████ >> No, we know that you do. >> you come in the middle of a walk. >> We know a couple things about you. You got groomed by a guy. You get horny when you're doing ruck stuff. >> I didn't get groomed. You got essayed. >> Wait, what? >> Remember you got essayed? >> I got essayed? >> Yes, you did. You got a friend. >> I sure did. >> a girlfriend, bro. >> You laughed about >> Here we go again. >> I guess I'm wrong. You got groomed. >> Hey man, let him finish, dude. >> You were down ass ████ >> groomed and then didn't you call him later or something? >> Yeah, you were talking to this guy up. >> I couldn't call him cuz he was a he's a homeless dude.

2:31 >> [laughter] >> What? >> He's homeless. They just recently found him. The sister messaged me. >> Oh. How did you get groomed by a homeless guy, dude? What kind of idiot is this? >> He had a home at the time. He had a home at the time. >> Well, we had a good question. What's your answer? >> Yeah, yeah, what what what what is the question? >> That like you just did you have a breaking point? Like almost close to breaking point where you're like, "F███, I'm going to like I'm going to get the ████ out of here." And then uh but then you had something that was like >> No, I got to finish. >> You thought I might not make it through this and then somehow you pulled through. >> You thought I got to finish. >> I'm going to spread these cheeks. >> Yo, I'm You know how I'm so terrified of heights. >> No, we I didn't know I did not know that. >> I'm insanely terrified of heights. >> For real? You do crazy motorcycle ████ >> Did he say heights or hikes?

3:21 >> Heights. >> Oh. >> Heights. Heights. Heights. >> Damn fool, you went full ████ on me right now. >> I was like hiya. >> This fool's brain. For real, stop. >> For real. >> Yeah, 404 error. >> Heights. >> Okay. I did not know that. No. >> And then they made us go on a rappel tower. >> Oh my. But is it scary because you're rappelling backwards, no? Or you're forward? >> What the ████ man? Let me say something right now. First of all, we need to go up to tower. >> Wait, have you ever rappelled? first of all? >> What's that? >> Have you ever repelled ever? >> Never, never. >> So, first of all, I'm terrified of heights. I'm quiet as ████ I'm not telling anybody I'm afraid of heights. >> So, you don't be a ████ >> Yeah, I don't want to I don't want to be a ████ And to get to get up there, you have to climb It looks like a stair,

4:11 so you're like, "Oh, it's a stairs." But, I'm looking at it, it doesn't look like a stairs. I was like, "Where's the rails?" There's no ████ rails that >> It's a lot of stairs with no rails, by the way. >> what? As soon as I I got closer, it was just a ████ ginormous ladder. >> Mhm. >> And you know, ladders, it's at least like So, it's like it's it's a quick grab, grab, grab, and go. No, it's a reach, and you got to pull yourself up. Reach and >> "Where's the in between?" >> Yeah, where's the in betweens at? And then the whole time I'm climbing up, I'm just like, "F███, don't look down. Don't look down." >> cold and >> So, it's it's a max pain ladder. It's like basically built to make you stretch hard >> Yes, it is full stretch, and then you look down, and then you're looking at the safety gear, it's just a tiny ass mat. >> [laughter] >> So, I'm like, "That's pretty safe to

5:01 me." And I'm just like, "F███." So, I keep going up. By the time you're up, the one of the best things about these drill sergeants was they made sure you're focused on the task, and not You don't waste so much time on the fear part, cuz >> emotion. >> Because the longer you're up there, longer you ████ around, more fear starts to rising. So, the whole time I'm up there, drill sergeant heard me, "F███ up, Troy. Get your ████ ass over here now. Let's go. Buckle up. Buckle up." And I'm just like, "Oh, f███." I'm learning I'm I'm following directions. I'm buckling up. They're buckling me up. All right, now go ████ look down. And now I'm just looking down, and you know, that's one of the worst things to do if you're afraid of heights. I look down, and it's just ████ dude. And I see one of the guys uh >> How tall are you? Are you like five stories in the air? >> Dude, it was like 45-50 ft. >> Yeah, it's about >> That's five stories. >> About five stories. >> Nice. I didn't know. I I

5:52 >> It's okay. >> The coyote always dies after he looks down. >> Yeah, exactly. But I looked down. The worst part was it like the guys who's has supposed to be stopping for me was like a ████ dude. And I looked down >> that says good night. >> Yeah, and I was just like, "F███, dude. I got >> Not this one. >> Same guy, he's like, >> "Good luck." >> [laughter] >> "Good morning." >> No, that same guy goes, "I got you." And I'm like, "No, you f█████." >> Why did you take your like, "Yeah, like why did you take YOUR HANDS OFF THE ROPE?" >> YEAH. >> [laughter] >> But then and then he goes like, "Hurry up. Turn around. Stare at me, Troy. Turn Stare at me." And I'm just like looking at him like, >> That's when you go like this, right? The Yeah, well, >> then and then we got to straighten out, put our hands behind our back, but then it starts slowly, you know, like >> Are you facing the ground or is it the butt? >> No, it's the butt. >> Is that's too advanced? >> You look at the sky. You look at the sky. >> But before you >> He's seeing the ground is the only They

6:43 only do that in the movies, dude. >> No, they do it with >> Once you get really comfortable >> That's aerosol. That's aerosol. When When you get really comfortable, people just run down. >> Yeah. >> But look, I got I got ████ terrified and I was like, "Dude, I got to make an excuse not to do this." And somehow passed this because I was so ████ scared of it. But then at the end of the day, I just had to like, you know, once again, your your imagination. And then I just remembered my wife and kid down there. So I was like, "No, no, I got to get I got to I got to get this done. I got to ████ do this. I got to ████ do this cuz I got to go ████ home." Cuz the whole time I was like, "I got to go home. Home home home home." So every time they're over there, I'm like looking at them, instead of that ████ visual, I would be like, "My wife and kids there." So I was like, "I got to go down." >> You got a strong why. >> Yeah. So um I got on the belt and my drill sergeant was like, "Look at me and ████ focus." And I And then I just straightened up. I went I was just locked in.

7:34 And then I was just like, "Okay, let's ████ go." I stopped ████ crying about it. I stopped b███████ about it. And I was like, "Let's go." And he was [snorts] like, "Listen." And I just ████ I sat and give a ████ I just let go of my arm and I started descending down. >> You just like free fall? Aren't you supposed to go like this? >> No, yeah, yeah. I had like a couple of >> Oh, okay, okay. >> You learn how to stop it. >> yeah. >> The tension, you pull it back towards your back and you slowly, you know what I mean? You You have a break on and I was like The only way I got to any training was imagining my kid and wife at the end of every training. >> That was your main motive. >> That was my number one >> See little Eli. >> Yeah, because "Tabitha, don't be a loser." >> When you start seeing kids quit when you start seeing kids say, "I don't want to ████ do this." That somewhat kind of motivates you to have the excuses, too. Like, "Oh, I don't want to do this, too." >> yeah. >> It's contagious. Kids say, "I don't want

8:25 to do it. Oh, I hurt I hurt my back. I hurt my leg." Some of these drill sergeants can't even question you due to these new laws. So, they they're just like, "Whatever, bro." At the end, you're going to be you're going to be punished for it. Some of them I've seen people recycle um kicked out and everything every day. >> Recycle means like so like your boot camp keeps going. So, there's multiple people in different phases of boot camp. Recycle means like let's say you get dropped out, it doesn't mean you get to go home. They put you in another one, so you have to do the same thing over again. >> Why would you do that? >> in a different in a different battalion with different people. >> You wasted so much time and all these kids were like, "I'm not going to get recycled, bro." With my own eyes, man, I'm seeing them get kicked out. >> So, they Everyone always says the easiest way out is to just do it right the first time. >> Bro, just >> versus getting recycled five times, repeating the same five pains, and then

9:15 they go, "You know what? This guy's unusable." >> In my world, recycle means like just put anything in the can. Doesn't matter. It all goes to the same place. It all goes to the same place. >> This is the worst part. They lie to you. Hey, you're going to only go to back to week 10. ████ get kicked back to week six. >> So, all the hard ████ you overcame, you got to redo it again. >> With a whole 'nother company. But my number one way was just constantly think about my kid, my wife, my kid, my wife. That's only way I got through everything. >> That could be seen as corny to some, but I think that's ████ awesome. But, it's ████ awesome. >> No, that just means you went to a dark enough place. >> I agree. >> But, if you didn't have a wife or kid, you think you'd be like one of those 18-year-olds that just go, "F███ it, I quit." >> I don't know, bro. I don't know, because some of these kids' mentality, I can't even be mad at them. Half of the kids I was so ████ pissed off at,

10:05 I had to like humble myself and was like, "How was I like in 18?" >> Yeah, yeah. >> And then I was like, "Okay, I wasn't that ████ but like >> [laughter] >> Damn, that means they're ████ >> That's being humble, yeah. >> I get it. Because at the end of the day, some of these kids didn't grow up with a loving family, loving mom, loving dad. They all grew up with a ████ lifestyle. So, for them to just do whatever the ████ what they want, I get it. Cuz when my dad left, I did whatever I want. So, I was like, "I understand how you are, but >> You're saying like they don't have the like discipline and like endurance? >> There's no why for them. And some of them are active duty. So, they don't care how long they're in. They're in it for 2 years, regardless. 3 years, 4 years in the ████ regardless. >> There's nobody to be accountable to, right? Like >> Yeah, that's the one thing. >> that's the thing. Cuz if you came home and you quit, how humiliating would that

10:57 have been for you personally? >> Bro, that was the craziest part. My my friends were like, they instead of getting a recycle contract, they got they they decided to ████ chapter out. They decided to quit. And I looked at them and I was like, "Bro, you you're coming out of military saying you quit?" Everyone says the military, anybody can do it. One person, you know what I mean? Everybody say the military is easy, but here you are quitting, bro. Something that's so easy, you're quitting. Like, how embarrassing that would have been? You know how I told you all you guys I was in boot camp and now that I got to come out if I if I came back quitting, how embarrassing that would have been? >> It would have made some great JK videos though. >> I'm telling you the more views. Actually, way more views. >> I wouldn't want to be here talking about it. >> That's why we get more views. Let's talk about why you quit part 14. >> Yeah, hearing that every day.

11:47 Man, ████ that. >> That's like getting second place. >> Hey, I'm going to be very grateful about infantry school. They teach you how not to quit. >> Did you just What? >> What? >> What? That's Spock's joke, not mine. >> What? >> What? He was about to say something profound. >> No, it's all good. I'm not even trying to No, I'm saying >> What's the thing they taught you not >> They taught me how to like the It's so corny, but it teach you how you not to quit every day. >> But then But then you need it during boot camp. You don't get that until you get into infantry school. >> No, but here's the thing, right? Because we're infantry school and we're with the same drill sergeants 6 months straight, they're going to teach They're going to treat us like infantrymen from the beginning. Some drill sergeants, if you're not an infantryman, they're going to just be like, "Oh, I don't give a f███." Because you're going to a ████ uh a cyber security school. >> But isn't it the most important for troops on the ground to have that type of grit?

12:37 >> It is, bro. >> Cuz like I mean, to be honest, if you're cyber security, you're probably going to be in a bungalow. >> Yeah. >> Right? Like they're not they're not like they're not out there like dodging bullets all day, right? So, you need a guy that's like can sleep on dirt every day. >> That's like a whole 'nother story, you know? And the thing is, bro, like for example, I remember you know when you have groceries? And then I have my kid on my arm and I have like seven bags of groceries before I would be like, "All right, hold on. Let's put you down. Give it a second." But now I can go hold my kid, put my backpack on, seven groceries in, and then in my head it kicks in, "Don't quit. Don't quit. Don't quit." And then slowly I grab my ████ keys. I open the door with seven bags all the way throughout the elevator up without dropping the bag. You know what I mean? Some easy cheesy ████ like that I just

13:28 me like stop quitting and just ████ continue it through. >> Don't quit, put fire trucks on the TV, go play Xbox 360, bro. >> On your free time, ████ >> Every ████ time, boys.

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